Bad Dreams

i can sense your hatred
i can feel your pain
nothing to loose..and nothing to gain
youve touched me and now im new
i hate everything, and i hate myself too
cant get up and go outside
i feel dead..im not alive
the world spins faster then ever for me
my mind is foggy and i cant see
the smell of nothingness fills the room
i feel myself being slowly consumed
i scrap my leg
dont make me beg
get me out of here
i can feel it, the evil is near
coming closer, i cant run
what should i escape from
from myself..that is all
i feel like i could faint..i feel like i could fall
dont try and catch me, dont even bother
i stroke my leg and begin to slotter
faster, faster dont stop now
it feels so good...but i dont remember how...
how did i get here..in this place
the tears on my pillow, the look on my face
stirring..shadows on the wall
i cant stand up...i have to crawl
i look at my leg theres nothing there
dont worry go to sleep..it was just a nightmare
i lay down in bed again
wishing this night would end
flashbacks of pain and blood and gore
i dont wanna be here anymore
please come save me..get me out
i cant talk..but i try to shout
no one hears
i feel the evergrowing fear
but then it goes black
and my body goes numb
coming alive--i realize
that i am not alone
someones here..i dont know who
i look fearfully around my room
lost and confused i grip the sheets
sweat on my pillow..covers off my feet
its okay nobodys here
your fine ashley it was just a nightmare
im glad its over..not much more i could take
smiling to myself..just a dream...thank goodness im awake