The cadence of your voice
trips delicately down my spine
but your words take an eternity
for me to really hear.
Where did I go wrong?
This was supposed to be forever.
Where did I go wrong?
You begin to raise your voice-
you know I’m trying not to hear;
I’m lost in a world
where we still Are.
Where did I go wrong?
“I love you, always, forever.”
Where did I go wrong?
Soft footsteps echo back to me
but I’m two years back,
straddling your lap
and smiling at the camera.
Where did I go wrong?
“You’ve got the most incredible blue eyes.”
Where did I go wrong?
You have to shout now
because I’m still smiling
and it’s making you furious;
you don’t know what I’m thinking about.
Where did I go wrong?
“Near or far, close or together.”
Where did I go wrong?
I’ll let you go, now
with all of your false reasons
and I will wait till the day
the memories haunt you, too.
Where did we go wrong?
“Come back, sweet girl.”
Where did we go wrong?
The ice caps on Lake Ontario, here
have a current beneath them still;
and this is where I built new memories
on the current of stronger emotions.
We were too late, love.
But, “I love you, always, forever,
Near or far, close or together.”
Author notes
The parts of the refrain in quotes are from a song called "I Love You, Always Forever" by Donna Lewis. I mention this because a) I don't want to plagorize and this was obviously a song that was significant to the relationship spotlighted in the work. The second to last "refrain" in quotes is Not part of the song, 'sweet girl' was a pet name at the time. I hope that explains the switch in thought from female to male. This was another complete explosion of the pen for me, and obviously another therapy session with paper. I don't know why I post these. I really shouldn't subject others to my catharses.
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Rae,
This is so deeply touching and introspective. I enjoyed every word and line. I am so glad you did post it. You never know how your words may be needed by another on down the line. So it is so important to follow your heart when it tells you to share these profound feelings. You have a poets heart and that is lovely!
Blessed Be~
Az
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I think these are wonderful posts, while they are your catharses they still have style and composition and are not just ramblings. Very well expressed.
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Thanks
I am sorry that I did not reply to this sooner. I've been going through enough changes that I wouldn't be surprised if I woke up a butterfly tomorrow, so I haven't been on AP as much as I used to be. Your comments were wonderful and they really, really moved me. Thank you & Blessed Be.
***Rae***
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Catharses...
....had to look that up, I think you are being hard on yourself , as for the song I don't know that either!! I have just re-read, and it is making more sense. I was going to say it's not your best, but there is something very moving within this write. I think it will need a few more reads (which I will do) to really get the best from it...ian. Welcome back!!
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I recognize the song, now
without having read your author's notes, I would have missed that altogether...
I especially loved the lines:
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"The ice caps on Lake Ontario, here
have a current beneath them still""
this is a truly heartfelt composition... simplistic in many ways, but deep in so many more... absolutely beautiful work... touching and heat wrenching, but in a way that is stoic and seems to convey wisdom for having loved instead of bitterness, acceptance and hope, strength and the ability to move on instead of being crushed by despair...
amazing work, my friend, and it is wonderful to see something new from you... I have looked forward to it!
if people read your catharses and are able to take something from it, then you've kind of managed to perform a service as well as having expressed yourself...
very well done - an excellent piece!
-Leilani
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