falling apart

My thoughts are jumbled at the moment,
I fill my body taking flight,
the weight on my body is gone.

My heart hammers hard against my chest,
I look for you in the midnight sky,
the wind blowing through my brown hair.

My blue eyes searching for something that maybe I missed.
The cars radio in the back ground play the sweet melody I love,
Wanting nothing more than to give my self to you.

Keeping this secret from you is driving me crazy.
I fill myself falling apart, as I look for you.
I want to tell you ever detail of the incident.

They say it's an accident but is it true that maybe faite has made this happen.
I don't want to tell you good bye at the moment,
I watch as you slowly walk back toward your car.

The tint off the windows reflecting my image back at me,
my eyes study myself in the window, nothing has changed.
I want to reach out and stop you from your departure.

Your child sleeping silently in the womb of it's mother.
kept secret until the news is ready to be blurted out,
I want to tell you everything but my heart wont let me at the moment.

I fill myself falling apart, in the shaded looks you give me.
I can tell that you know that I'm keeping something from you.
My mist up as the image in the window begins to slowly disappear from me.

The sound of the tires of the car feel my ears as you slowly pull away.
I stand in the middle of the night the light from the moon above casting over me.
I don't want to cry in-front of you, your tail lights in the distant I let the tears slowly flow.

I want to tell you the secret but I'm afraid.
I want to tell you that everything will be okay.
Tell you that we will make it in the end.

I feel myself falling apart at the thought of you leaving me,
Just wanting one more hour with you.
Wanting you to know the secret that I hold in my body.

The night sky slowly takes hold of me as I raise into the night sky,
I feel myself falling apart in the mist of the vastness of space,
The stars underneath me catching my spirit as I let go.

I watch as your tail lights vanish in the night.
my heart heavy with guilt wanting you to know everything.
I hold the key to your heart but your the only one that knows that.

I'm falling apart at the site of your face when I let you slip away the first time.
Now I hold the secret that could possibly end our relationship.
I'm falling apart at the thought of it.

I hold your child in me at this time,
please don't tell me that it's not yours,
I feel myself falling apart at the thought of it.

I hold the secret at the moment and not many people know about it.
I want nothing more than to tell you as I stand here in the night sky.
But something keeps telling me not to.

I'm falling apart at the seems, it may seem that my soul is gone.
My eyes are empty as I hold on to the love that we have,
not wanting anything to happen to that.

Falling, falling apart

I want you to know that I want to make you happy with me,
I want let you know the secret inside of me,
the wind picks up taking me with it.

If I am to leave with you tonight,
I shall go with you just to make you happy.
Falling apart at the thought.

Falling apart at the thought of you driving off in the distance with out me.
Falling apart inside because my ego wont let me go along with my heart.
Falling apart with what I have to tell you one day, and it may be the last thing I can ever tell you.

I hope you stay with me.
I know you will.
I want my child to live with it's parents.

But I can't help but fall apart at the news
falling, falling apart at the thought
I'm telling you when I'm ready.

Falling apart, falling apart about the lies now that it has escaped my lips I know that you will be bye my-side.
The night sky slowly lets me back,
the weight regaining in me.

I fell myself falling apart at the thought that I almost let you down.
I know that you love me, you've told me your out look on it.
Falling, Falling apart.

FALLING APART