worst of all

my heart is spinning
every time i open my eyes
i just get so dizzy
it hurts so much sometimes
im just gonna be sick
up and down
like a rollercoaster
i have no business being on
if my life were a rollercoaster
i'd have extreme motion sickness
i couldn't handle the ups and downs
and all that spinning around
god i'm dizzy
just stop me please
it hurts
why do you hurt me so?
i loved you
but now it's like
i don't know you
i don't want to
see this imposter
you have become
i left you
i won't come back
if you want me
fight for me
you have to prove
without a doubt
you are back
that you care
and you will be here
but for now
NO
i do not believe you
i can't see you
your soul is missing
i miss you
this imposter of yours
does not care about me
you do not love me
you will not
hurt me again
if you come back
prove to me
that i do matter
acknowledge me
hug me
show me you care
but do not hurt me
not again
and do not
be that imposter
he is not
the man i love
this imposter
hurt me
worst
of all