I’d be lying if I said
I have never…
Speculated in my heart
what “us” might look like
yearned to be the target for
your hunger’s arrow
pondered freefalling
into your liquid pools of love
wondered what it might feel like
to hold your affectionate hand
imagined profound kisses stirring deeply
in places seldom seen
fantasized of whispers …
softly moaning in my ear
dreamed of someplace new
where merging souls confide
drifted off to sleep on a frozen winter night
wrapped in narratives of you
...I’d be lying if I said
I have never
Copyright © Henri Ferguson 2003
Author notes
People come into our lives for reasons, which are not always clear. With respect to relationships there are times when we allow our hearts to wander the path of illusion that leads to the door of intrusion. With flags up and red lights flashing we are reminded to honor that which is and detach from that which could have been. And so we love those who are not free to love us back from a distance. Not wrong, not a mistake just a lesson in love.
Written August 30th, 2003
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The age old question "What if"...but observed from within and presented with such grace and elegance- It is more than your words that stir me so, it is the way your soul shines through them.
People do come into our lives for a reason. It's just not always the reason we'd hoped for. Life's most profound lessons are often learned at our heart's expense, but with reflection and understanding, enrich us for the rest of our time here. The wisdom and simple truths that shine through your work, Henri, are in inspiration.
Cheers for the insight- it was just what a girl needed today.
x
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Good call on this, I admire your insightfulness here. Thanks for sharing that.
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This is a wonderful piece! I really like the format you've used here, add to the power of it I think. It's so true to life and honest, which I always find refreshing. Many times we find ourselves falling for someone out of our reach, attached elsewhere, sometimes I think it's not only the physical and spirital attraction, but the fact that they are 'safe', in that we know nothing will ever really come of it, but it lets our minds wonder into fantasies without having to really commit to anything or anyone at that time. Nothing wrong with it all, it happens and I do agree usually there is a lesson there indeed. A most excellent piece!
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Sigh....this is absolutely stunning. It hits close to my own heart. I being the other side of this coin a couple of years ago.
Some loves are never consummated yet the heart seems to have a mind of it's own. Unrequited love it so beautiful, yet painful at once. Wonderfully written Henri
Red -
Some come into our lives and leave a stain upon our hearts~
but leave as fast as the come~
some come into our lives
and leave an ever lasting beat upon our hearts~
Don't we always want what we know we shall never have~
perhaps that's what attracted us in the first place~
lessons learned to profit from the past~
with each beat~we grow within~
I wonderful write~
mmm~think I'll find more of yours to read~
every poem a person writes~
is telling a little secret of them self~
Smiles~Emma
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A beautiful and sensual poem
I haven't been to see ya in awhile
I have indeed missed out
I got to catch up
Do come see me just posted a new one also
Hugs
Susan~~~ -
I still can't say how great of a poet you are and how you use words to create great peices of literature! Go for the gold with these, and keep up the good work!
In Christ'Aragorn -
I believe in fate, kismet, whatever you want to call it. I believe that everything happens for a reason and God has this big master plan that we just don't know about! I love this poem, because it speaks so many truths- We love those who cannot love us back and so we love them from a distance....
painful and powerful words.
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another beautiful love poem!! with great undertones of lust..i wonder all the time....
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This has to be one of the most delicately sensual love poems I've read written about unconsumated love; love you say you actively turn from as it is forbidden. I think the 'target for
your hunger’s arrow' is an exquisite way of expressing multiple images - the 'flechazo' or 'coup de foudre' of instant attraction, the driving sharp pain of desire, the impression that you are somewhat helpless in this situation; with the gift of insight from your comment, it almost brings a sacrificial element into play, yet you withold yourself from that arrow while simultaneously you would place yourself in its path. A disturbing dichotomy! The 'profound kisses' and 'fantasized whispers and moans' are so deeply erotic, as a reader I feel like a voyeur entranced by your desires, the transfer of heat is tangible! and yet you slow and cool slightly with the gentle and comforting penultimate couplet, and 'wrapped in narratives of you'is so evocative and startlingly original I am trying to come up with enough of a superlative to praise it - and failing. Henri, it's a tragedy that the object of your love is forbidden, but by confiding to us this enticingly sensuous poem, you must have scores of women unable to think coherently! This poem teases the senses just as your love teased your heart. I think if she knew, she'd be sorely tempted!
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I think it's just perfect... many people on this site (including me) write love poems and some of them are so much alike it's dull to read them... but this one is so unique, that it wasn't dull at all. I enjoyed reading this. Keep writing!
Kate
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You are quite right. Sometimes we must find in others what is lacking in our own relationship so we may better understand how to make us better partners. Sometimes it's easy to let feelings and desires get carried away and soon you find yourself in a situation you never thought you would be in.
People come into our lives and hearts for a reason. Sometimes unbidden or unwanted but all have a purpose no matter the joy or pain they may cause.
You captured the questions of this alternate (forbidden) love well.
Mandrake
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What are the reasons people come into our lives?
sometimes we find out..
sometimes we dont...
i am with CM in her comments completely....
as soon as I was done reading... i whispered that
beautiful thoughts -
now this is well crafted poetry ... so many things I love about this poem ... intense emotions, the sincerity, the layout, word selection ... to name a few - I also like how you opened and closed with the same lines ... this is an emotional rollercoaster, but well worth the ride
I enjoyed every line of this poem but my favorites had to be:
"dreamed of someplace new
where merging souls confide
drifted off to sleep on a frozen winter night
wrapped in narratives of you"
Well done Henri - I feel inspired! ~ Much Respect, Brian -
Hi Henri
So beautiful poem.
Sometimes people comes to our life just to show us how the tears r bitter...
hugs from brazil
Maria Nina -
I had to come back to this...
Love, whether right or wrong...is it's own committment. I find it to be very forgiving and accepting...from both sides..When my heart is involved...I am committed. And I find neither distance or time....a deterant. I would just be patient...and do things in the proper order.
I love one man...and it is so strong...at times it stops me in my tracks. It catches even me so off guard. Renders me inadequate.
I only hope he knows it, too. At times I feel he does...then at others..I am not sure, and I sense his uncertainty.
Just some personal thoughts here, in the light of a previous conversation.
And as to the poem...you expressed your thoughts so profoundly.
Who hasn't had those thoughts of someone that is there...but not ours. You describe that secret want in such a magnificent manner..
Definately going into my favorites.
Maddie
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nothing quite like distance and introspection and sitting in ones soul to bring about clarity on matters of the heart...sometimes after awhile, one can even learn to laugh at it all ~ it's quite difficult and wonderfully lovely to be a human...
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Gorgeous
I have looked at this three times (!!) and been rendered speechless each time, vowing to return! Henry it's gorgeous, just gorgeous. I love it...its so full of achingly bittersweet "amor".....
I think anyone on the receiving end of this passion would truly be a lucky individual. It's just breathtaking!!?! I am still struggling!!! Gorgeous like the beautiful mind that ponders such thoughts....
rhiannon 11 (Sarah) ::sigh:: -
A VERY sensual write, filled with truths that ring bells in my head.
Excellent flow and feel to this write...I greatly enjoyed..
My best to you..
Mary ann -
Henri, Your words and both beautiful and powerful. Personally, I am a bit of a fatalist, in that I firmly believe that some events in our lives were "just meant to be" and this belief includes the people that wander in and out of lives (no matter how brief our interaction). It is only natural to be drawn to someone and want nothing more than to get closer... Your poem captures the sentiment very well. I thoroughly enjoyed your words. Thanks - Helen
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You know, Henri...I think there are no accidents.... people come into our lives for a myriad of reasons... And there is a need for them to be there...they will help us grow, help us learn....or perhaps...we help them....either way....they are meant to be there....meant to influence...
Some of them....we can't help but speculate....can't help but wonder, envision.....
The trick, as your comments suggest, is in knowing where to draw the line.....when there is a reason for that line to be drawn...
Thanks for sharing this very rich lesson.
Maddie
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Exc
So true mon ami. How can you explain an interlude of a year or a day or a lifetime when for some reason it just doesn't work out. Especially if you still believe it would but aren't smart enough to act on it.
Two ships passing in the night, I guess, and woe the Captain who fails to acknowledge the other vessell with a single blinking of lights.
Great job, Ferg
Sag -
Hm... Luckily I haven't stumbled down that path (yet?), the one
where the other person is already busy. I was going to suggest
that you put it in Hope category instead of Angst, but after
reading your note, I think it is best suited where it is. It is
interesting though... Without reading your note one could also
read it as a happy, hopeful poem, about a new, spiring love - not
something forbidden and full of angst. Some interesting wordings,
that gives the poem a fresh feel, and makes sure it doesn't appear
as cliché. I wouldn't want to change or improve anything, maybe
experiment with the last line into
"...I’d be lying if I said
I have never. "
to give it a feeling of closure, but I guess that's a matter of
taste, and it's not at all a suggestion, merely an idea
Lovely piece, Henri!
Jen
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Henri,
you have dissected the feelings and emotions associated with the tenderness of love. People do come into our lives for reasons...which are not so easy to understand at the moment. We hope that with time we may reach some kind of awareness of the way our mind - subconsciously and consciously - learns to deal with the power of certain emotions...it is a neverending voyage into the mysteries of our hearts. Lovely.
Thank you, Maria
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Ferguson
The mind cannot control where the heart doth go...
love and light
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Sometimes the fantasy surpasses reality and we are left grasping straws, instead of kisses.
And sometimes the fantasy is enough - sometimes it is too much and drives us insane with its nagging. Intersting, thought provoking piece. -
Ah! Henri - I saw you rectified Maureen's multi-posts ...
And my own comment behaved itself nicely, don't you think? LOL
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LOL@Maureen
If I read what the System has done to a single comment, I think I must be very careful when posting my own multi-complexities
Well, Henri, "I'd be lying if I said I have never ..." Within my soul I know that in the spiritual realm it was meant for "us" to be estatically happy ... whoever the "us" may be. I am positively sure - within the deepest deep of my soul - that the only solid "us" is that unison or unification which is meant or predestined in Heaven and which is based upon love for the Almighty Creator ... All other relationships within "manmade" marriages just cannot "work" - it is almost impossible to continue dreaming one Dream if there is not this SACRED inner connection: the Divine triangle - God, Husband, Wife. Oh! The same yearning I am experiencing every single moment to be unified with God again within a NEW LIFE, I found in my yearning for "us" to rapture into a crystal volcano: body, mind, soul -purified by that holy passion which are OURS. No fears for rejection, no humiliation, no sorrow ... whatever the external situation may be. To die into a new life at the end-beginning (like your father, dearest Henri!) with a lifetime of love of my Beloved tenderly engraved upon body, mind and soul ...
Yes.
"I'd be lying if I said ..." How divine your poem. Perhaps these words of yours will instigate that which was meant and predestined for "us" ... for all of us
Warmest Regards,
Myra
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Excellent! Lovely Poem!
I love poems that allow the reader to fantasize that the poet's words were written for them (or to fantasize that someone else feels that way). This was one of those poems. I love wondering what someone else might be thinking (along those lines). It's one of the things that keeps life interesting and worth living.
Thanks for sharing these tantalizing, sensual thoughts and feelings...a pleasure to read!
Maureen 
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Stunning write Henri...and quite different subject matter
to anything you have written before...( of those I have
read at least )...
Some beautifully penned lines in this , think my fave
would have to be :
" drifted off to sleep on a frozen winter night
wrapped in narratives of you "...
Wish I had written that !!! ( pouting with envy ! )
Just conjures up an image of being totally in lurve !!
And ain't it one of the BEST feelings in the world ?????
On a more serious note though...I think so many could
relate to this particular scenario. We have all encountered
someone in our lives who intrigues , or an unrequited love
of sorts...and for whatever reason , it simply cannot be...
or we choose to believe that...which is often sad...
maybe its the better option to grab the bull by the
proverbial balls...lifes too short !
I like to think , for all my sins and cynical attitude at
the best of times , that love is never a waste of time...
regardless of what shape or form...
This is the best of yours I have read...excellent write.
It says personal...hope he or she gets to read it
~ sonia ~ X
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So much goes into the choices we make, henri, and you said so much in your comments about loving those who are not free to love us back from a distance, that is so true much of the time. Seems safer that way, since they never really engage to begin with, the end of that pseudo-relationship isn't quite as painful - but you know, sometimes it is. There is no accounting for emotion, or the roller coaster ride it takes when the chemicals start popping in that synapse, I wish I had made better choices, but then, maybe I would have made worse ones - this heart stuff is sooo confusing! But I still want to have those daydreams, those wishes and hopes, and maybe ignoring the fact that it will never be. sigh You always conjure up so much in me.. how does that happen? Simple thoughts put together with your usual panasche..
~ becky
Edited on Aug 30, 6:34 p.m. because 'its with, with, with panasche!'.
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