Two Hearts Inside

A heart broken too many times before now,
Finally mended once again only to tear into two pieces,
One bigger than the other but not really more dominant,
There is no hole, both pieces are strong.

The large piece belongs to my love of many years,
After being through so much for so long it's hard to see,
How live without him could be possible,
And his piece of the heart beats so strong.

Yet now, the small piece seems to be growing stronger,
Beating healthier and louder with each passing conversation,
This new man I have dreamed about a time or two,
A best friend of a few his reserve makes me heal.

The two of them can make me laugh no matter what,
Through the tears and all of the consuming pain,
Games have been lost and fortunes have been made,
Yet the end is no where in sight.

I don't know where to go from this point on,
The thoughts I've held inside are getting to strong,
Both pieces are holding their ground,
At times one seems the stronger until the love is found.

Who do I chose, and how can I be at this point,
My heart really belongs to the man of many years,
Yet none is here to be able to whisper in my ear,
Phone calls and messages are hard enough to bare.

DIstance no longer seems to matter to my heart,
It grew numb to it long ago, though I do yearn a close touch,
Dreams of both of their hearts at night,
Keep me wondering the next day how I am to go on.