My Letter

I sit here thinking of you, it's driving me crazy but what am I to do? Your face plagues my mind, your beautiful eyes that were so alive. I almost called you today, the salt water I tasted made me so weak. Your voice always chased away my demons, I feel so weighed down by these heavy legions. Your tender kisses on my shoulder still make me smile, but I'm trying so hard to be strong and move on so I throw the phone when my fingers start to dial. Your so much stronger than you know and though I can't be there supporting you, holding your hand and pushing you through, I'm afraid to admit I'm in love with you. You've bewitched me mind, body, and soul. It's so hard to hold onto these feelings when I don't even know when or if I'll see you again. These silent words are my only release, the only way to let these feelings free, I wish I could go back to the days when we could be, the days it was okay to hold you so tight and for our love we didn't have to fight. But that is all a dream, we've never been free of these chains to love. Don't you see? We've made something out of nothing and that's a miracle to me. I've always been so cold, afraid to let someone in, then you came along and opened this heart of tin. I threw away the key a long time ago but I didn't know it was you that held it all along. Your all I've ever wanted and all I want to know. We were only together a minute but when you left you took my soul. We made two lovers out of two hearts of stone, I don't know about you but I've tried and I can't let go. Maybe life has let you move on, maybe time has erased my face and to you I am gone. Maybe you found what you were looking for and don't need me anymore. Through all of this I want you to know the memory of your smile eases my pain, if I'm left without you it wasn't in vain, for I held everything when I held you .....