A thousand times to live this moment over again
Creates more chances to break my skin open.
Lies kept inside for so long, until this story is told
I slash, I cry, I wanted to die in misery
No twinkle in my eye or glow to my smile
Just pretending to love you and live longer than what you force upon me
Some lies that are told can be hiding more than the truth
The mysterious story will never be told again
In a relationship with the “perfect guy”
Unfolded into a nightmare and trapped me for the rest of my life
A mind of my own? What a joke
No point of thinking my own thoughts if being told my every move
Sleepless nights, motionless days. My body hurts so bad
My desire to live is what makes me heart beat
Waiting for my time to fight back
Proving the strength to fight is inside
Not much in my head, one school year to go
Why do I feel so trapped inside my own mind
I can’t tell a soul why the bruises keep covering my battered body
Wondering what you will do if I try to abandon you again.
So I’m sitting here waiting for the beating you will put upon me
The person who I said “I love you too” is now my enemy
I must be some miracle for staying so strong,
but so stupid for staying a year and a half.
Author notes
"Blackend Heart"
A contest entry
- ♥ Blackend Love ♥ by stop a bullet.
385 points, ended August 5, 2007, 23 entries
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ps you REALLY need to get ahold of me.
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"Not much in my head, one school year to go
Why do I feel so trapped inside my own mind
I can’t tell a soul why the bruises keep covering my battered body
Wondering what you will do if I try to abandon you again."
I know what your talking about and after this year your life will be better Just count down the days.
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This poem has a really good idea to it.. I'm just not sure if it's exactly what I'm looking for.. Don't get me wrong. I really liked it.. especially the last stanze. It's a really good write. Thanks for entering and good luck!
}{aley
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