saying goodbye

people come and go, mostly leaving on their chosen paths of life
i get farther and farther away from those whom i used to call friends
they're letting go and moving on and away
this is goodbye
this is my farewell song of loss and dead hope
they are giving up on me and all that i have to offer
i have to respect the decisions they make
and the paths they choose to walk
i am accepting the loss of those i thought i'd never lose
learning not to put my all into people that don't give me their all
it's a slow painful process
but i'm getting there
learning to stop giving people everything right away
not gonna wear my heart on my sleeve
but i cannot stop caring
i have a long way to go
and i see the brightness and light of the world
but i can't bring my version to everyone
it is for everyone else to find their own light in this world
so this is farewell, and wishing the best, and never forgetting those who choose paths that lead away from me.
i just hope that one day i can find those people that will stay with me and by me for the rest of my life, same as i'll stay with and by them for the rest of theirs.
one day i can share the light of this world with them
but for now there is my family... and my father most of all
my mother, my dad, my father, and all my sisters and my brother but most of all my father, i share with him teh dark and the light, the good and the bad of me and my life. i hope that the guy in my life right now and i can make it work, but it's rocky right now. long distance and differences in priorities and thinking makes it difficult. and i doubt the love sometimes. but i love him. and always will. i'll find my way through my own darkness, and find my light. through all of this so far, these past months, my father has been the biggest and best support to me. through anything and everything. and here i say it proudly. i am working on me, and finding me, and i hope to inspire other people, and share my light with them. so for all of you whose paths are forking in different directions, know i'll always be here for you. i care for you and about you, and i'll be here.

farewell...