Oh Happiness

Think about it
Did you dream about it
When I was lying in bed
Thinking of someone else

I hoped it would haunt you
But I'm beyond the realms of hate
Bored with every anti climax

Just grateful
I found something real;
something not you

All that time to think about
what you did
how you lied
You're still scum

When you're rotting conscious
Turning over for seventh time in a night

You still haven't paid the price
(not yet)

When you dream
Do you think of my legs spread on the pavement?

Did it get you off
Was it when I told you to get off
Or was it when you saw me cry?

All these reflections
I now see my own perspective
without your negative drone

how could I forget
you laying next to me in bed
when all I could think of is that night?

When you dream of the future
horse and carriage
dreams of marriage
when your fake innocent subsides

why could you not break away
from the monitor screen
just to see your unborn child?

There is no solice or escape
in blaming youth
You were framed by your callous demeanor

Oh happiness,
what peace of mind!
just a little glimpse
of what I've left behind

But baby not tonight
I'm sitting here
Trying not to think about it
I don't cry about it

tonight
my spirits are high
in the comfort of Jack Daniel's arms

When you see me smile
Let it be known
I see you,
ALL of you...

the partner, the lover,
the rapist, the bully,
the liar, the cheater,
the beater, the little boy...

.. I see you, in your crowning glory...
as you wanted me to see you..

You are still scum
Never forget it