So Hopeless

Breaking down,
Crying out,
Wishing to belong,
Hoping to be found.

Walking along the ocean,
Staring at the reflection would have
Seemed so cliche back then.

But back then, everything felt numb.
All that was done,
All those forced smiles,
Made it all seem hopeless.

Staring into the heavens,
Letting the light sink in,
Thinking back to those times,
When help was offered,
But was then pushed away,
Saying that it could be fixed
Without anyone else.

All those attempts,
Of bloody tears,
And breaking even more inside,
Just seemed hopeless,
Every day feeling even more alone.

What can be done?
Why should this suffering continue,
When Death`s black silhouette is visible,
Even through the most darkest light?
Can all the hope inside of someone,
Be drained so rapidly?

Killing all these fears away,
The breath inside was finally released,
After years of holding it in.

This hopelessness,
Locked away all those feelings,
Turning this heart into a brick,
Building up in hate.

It`s possible,
To end up stuck in a lightless tunnel,
Pitying this soul,
Just hoping,
Standing still,
Ending up a victim to the hands of Death.