Memoirs of a Lonely Girl

For someone like me,
Realizing you're better off single is not easy.
I've never felt so alone
Yet never felt so peaceful.
Finally something new is happening to me.
I don't understand it.

I wonder whether it's a phase
Or if this feeling is going to stay.
My mind turns a full 180
As I try to grasp the only solid object I can find.
Why is it you?

If it weren't for you
I would never feel this way,
You know that's the truth.
Is it easier said than done?
I don't know if I'll find out.

Breaths sighed heavily only exhale my pain
But it keeps falling asleep in the pit of my stomach
It does not move
It only grasps hold of one solid object
Why is it you?

I have never been alone,
As you knew about me.
I have never loved it.
I have never hated it.
I have never known it.
Until you.

But still I am in love
With an inanimate object
Refusing to move,
Not even budge an inch.
As I try to push my way inside it.
Why is it you?

Why do I suffer from the one person
I have given my heart and body to?
Why do I clench my teeth at the idea
Of never again laying eyes upon you...
Why is it you?

However even in this pain
Even if I can not breathe and life is growing heavier
I still breathe every breath for you
And my life is still made for you
And for all of this

I thank you.