why these feelings

I sit here on this computer, your image running through my head.
A since of dread stuck into my body,
I only hope that nothing happens that might tear us appart.

I listen to this one song over and over, trying not to cry.
Thinking back at all my past mistakes and miss deeds,
the dread runs through ever course of my body.

I know that it has nothing to do with a certain person,
but there are times that I hate this premanition that I get.
Because it's hard knowing that something bad will happen when I get this.

I want nothing more than to understand this power that I have,
but then there are times as well were I wish I was normal just like everyone else.
As I sit here on this computer and let the music play through me,

I want nothing more than to let it all go and live my life the way I want to.
It may because I know that one of my relationships with a friend is slowly slipping,
or it could be the fact that I'll have to work my but off this year to actually graduate.

I want nothing more than to understand this feeling that I'm going through,
for someone to able to expain this void in my life everytime I get one of these.
For someone to understand that I have nothing to do with these feelings that just to seem to happen.

I know that I may be a freak after this one,
but then again at least I'm being myself.
Everytime I get one of these feelings I can't help but warn someone about them.

Afraid that if I don't then someone very close to me may be hurt.
So afraid to close my eyes because the feeling could get worse,
afraid that I may witness this action and watch them slip through my fingers.