I'm keeping bottled up.
trying to break my psyche, right in two I think.
I wanted to change my life.
Is my shirt warm enough?
great philosophical concepts and infinities,
yes I don't really have a clue.
I am a smaller child, using words beyond its comprehension.
breaking into the weak psycho psyche,
I consider to be me.
Maybe those that regress have a keener sense of reality,
than those of us who can uphold discourse seemingly knowledgeably about things of the world.
We are children playing in a dangerous place,
no matter how seriously we take ourselves,
we speak so loosely of incomprehensible, indefatiguable, almost magical forces,
we are unable to understand.
Who really has a map of the lay of this infinite land?
Most of us have millions of brain cells,
Each brain cell has access to another hundred or thousand contacts.
Each one of those transmit to another specialized cortex information it thinks will help us survive.
What if we break the wrong one in our ignorant bliss?
What if the acid sinks right down through a fissure and changes us completely forever?
We have to consider these things before they are cut out of our reality.
Who are you?
Who knows?
With so many infnite possibilities it's really up to you to define.
It's alot of responsibility,
but that's life.
When riding a motor bike, you almost invariably go to the object of your perception.
If you look to the horizon, you'll head there.
If you look at an object in the way,
you'll almost certainly head in its direction...
You will crash into an unpleseant reality.
That's one way to express the truth of life.
No matter how old or young you are;
you have to stop ignoring your direction,
and define it.
You have to see your future.
You are powerful enough to define it.
And then you will find your way.
So many philosophies have been based on this concept.
Lost in defintion,
or in the exacerbation of every situation.
Some things you have to figure out for yourself.
Unfortunately,
those are the most often most complex things.
When people say I don't know,
and look at you lovingly,
and perhaps prey for you,
you are in the right place,
to continue your life.
You really are your own champion and master,
don't worry if you don't seem too good at it.
just bounce with the frequency and go with the flow,
and don't sweat the little things you're told are so incredibly important.
Those voices are just telling you what they want.
They are not important as the stressful commentary would suggest.
They don't really matter to you.
We're building a temporary but substantial universe.
The littlest thing could mean everything.
Unfortunately we're largely incapable of discerning where these things are.
So go on. Be who you are.
If you allow it,
the prejudices and discretions,
will shave you down to nothing.
Life is dangerous.
Be dangerous.
Every chance you take brings you further.
Life is one big experiment.
Ask, react, question, bring in the light.
We're not of this world or this universe, but a product of everything.
It's an amazing reality we are blessed with.
My psyche is not my enemy or my friend.
It is a function of god and the universe.
I don't understand what it wants me to be.
Yet I follow.
Gravity.
Deep profound and very drunk dialogue.
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interesting direction you've taken with this. I always got very philosophical when high on pot but never when drunk. being drunk always made me feel like shit somewhere deep down inside despite feeling like 'the man' everywhere else.
some of this touches (for me anyway) on the eleven dimensions. the steps taken for each dimension to have an individuality resembles the steps taken for us to attain the same goal.
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"and perhaps prey for you" - I think you meant "pray", unless there was a pun there that I missed.
This is a heavy one, I'm going to have to sit with it for a while and re-read it later to let all of what you said sink in and decide what my response actually is.
I like your stream of consciousness form.
I'll probably change my mind about this when I read it again, but the first time through, my favorite part was that last stanza. I liked that you came back to the examination of your psyche, but drew that trail of thought to a conclusion that is gratifying and leaves the reader feeling content and complete, as oppose to hopeless and overwhelmed.
Well done.
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Thanks for dropping in and reading a couple of pieces. I'll return the favor. I kept prey to leave it ambivalent. Just another one of those 'try to live in the moment' pieces. It's a big theme of mine.
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ouffffff...what food for thought,[almost a rant with intelligence] even though most of the time I do not see intelligence in a rant...I did in this one. Will rattle around in my wee brain for quite a while yet...and yet, I will follow gravity
regards,
reenie
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Thank you for reading and commenting, and not missing the intelligence in this piece. Stumbly as it may have been presented.
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"If you look at an object in the way,
you'll almost certainly head in its direction...
You will crash into an unpleseant reality."
This makes me think of kayaking and trying not to look at the big boulders ahead of me, because when I do, I always seem to crash into them. Have you ever read "Stalking The Wild Pendulum" by Itzhak Bentov? If not, you really should.
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I've come to have a suspicion about the uncanny way in which we can have whatever we want by believing in it, and maintaining a persistence of vision. And a bit unhinged about how we imagined our reactions and responses would be...about how incredibly off base we are.
Everyone thinks they would like to be a multi-millionaire. For many I think it could work out wonderfully, but for a surprisingly large percentage, it would only be a short tragedy. -
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I've also thought something similar - that being open to something positive will give it a better chance of happening. I tested this theory while waiting tables. I had a bad habit of going downhill emotionally if I got stiffed early on in the night. I thought I might try to 'enforce' a more positive outlook no matter what and see what happened. short version: I averaged about 50% increase in tips per night. not convincing on a grand scale but enough for me to never allow a bad tip to affect the rest of my tips again.
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Hahha. It's kind of a toss up between "The Secret" and the old saying "be careful what you wish for". Yeah. I believe we can will things to our reality, but do we really know what is best for us? We're like children thumbling with matches. It's okay to light a candle but we need to be careful not to start a brush fire.
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Deeply thought provoking for sure, and just for the record drunks tell only the truth...maybe a little more outspoken and rambling, but truth all the same...
your thoughts here are wonderful and they flow not in even understanding but as you thought them...raw and emotion...so many paths to take in this game of life...yet we often mistaken one for another and travel it for awhile to turn and try another...I have past so much in my life, that at this point I try to be a bit more intuitive before I walk...you have some great and deeply profound thoughts throughout...jumping in many directions...yet all with meaning and purpose...I do believe amny of us ponder so many things about this life that we may never have answers for...but this is just the beginning, is it not?Best on your journey!
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Thanks for the response. I try to get to a place where I feel like I'm telling the truth,
and saying something interesting.
I don't think one is much good without the other.
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Damn.. I stumbled over here pretty pissed off about something else. How dare you write something that calms me down. Hands on hips. I liked being in my little rage. I was enjoying the taste of it.
"No matter how old or young you are;
you have to stop ignoring your direction,
and define it."
I am off to define.
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Thanks for reading. Best of luck. I can probably piss you off again if you like. I seem to be better at that than I'd like.
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roll on
pissing people off can truly be an art form.
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Very philosophical for being drunk. I can dig it.
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WTF
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WTF indeed.
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and yet if we don't walk down that certain journey or path that is set before us we never learn what life is all about.
yes life is dangerous...
but some risks are worth it!
Interesting perspective!
Keep penning on one stroke at a time!
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amazing write. i am struggling to find that what it is that i am meant to be lately... and several of these very same things / ideas / thoughts roll through my mind. you have stated this quite well. going to bookmark it, so i can read it again..
Thanks for sharing your talent.
blessings and *stomps
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You've got to figure out your own values, then let them lead you, and don't be surprised if they change. In fact, worry if they don't. Thanks for reading.
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a long piece but a very deep within piece that surfaced into letting out emotions, well done.
from tracey
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I cried on reading this ...
please never stop being you.
Love
Myra
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so i find you still rambling on and on eh?
it is nice to be back and find all the rambles ive enjoyed in the past and you did not disapoint!
life is one tiny experiment with one hell of a fucking explosion
ps.. its gozzy
good to see you
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Ah right. Why did I not recognize you 'till now? Right. I forgot to pull my head out of my ass. Par for the course.
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lol...very existentialist...
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Good
Could have been trimmed a bit, and lost a bit in places.
But you were drunk, so this is a good drunk ramble.
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Einsteinish
I wonder if you write when sober. Anyway, I have been where what you wrote goes and I have discovered, pondering the infinities, the what how and why of life and will write you about it when I merge my papers into a fluid that flows along moreso like the lines of streams and rivers as opposed to swamps. You write so well because you think so well and prehaps will carry the path much further than I who am, bit by bit, waining. Thanks for plastering this for us all. Here's to you. billpoet on Allpoetry -
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Beautifully mastered comment.
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Wooohooo Great piece here!! I loved each every word in this - though it is a little long ! Great job anyway!! Totally coool!! Keep it up!
Luv,
Candy
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well, damn....you cuold teach philosphy, I think. The whole thing was pretty much dead on as far as the way the world is, but I believe that
" am a smaller child, using words beyond its comprehension.
breaking into the weak psycho psyche,
I consider to be me.
Maybe those that regress have a keener sense of reality,
than those of us who can uphold discourse seemingly knowledgeably about things of the world.
We are children playing in a dangerous place,
no matter how seriously we take ourselves,
we speak so loosely of incomprehensible, indefatiguable, almost magical forces,
we are unable to understand." is the most true of it all...we remain children as far as the universe is concerned, yet we loose the most important part of chilhood: the ability to love unconditonaly
"Life is dangerous.
Be dangerous." words to live by....great write!!
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Very inspired, intellectual, philosophical, and a teensy bit confusing! I did entirely enjoy reading it though. I like how you relate people to children who use words and talk about ideas they don't understand.
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Well, I actually read the whole thing. I connot even begin to elaborate on how much I can relate to this poem, and to your worldview. Whether attaining blissful ignorance or ignorant bliss, it made your poem, the product of the universe around it. Extremely inspirational. < 2 words that never should never be phrased again. (I would give you 3 applauses but I only have 3 left.) It was interesting to see how you split up the beginning, middle and end of the poem itself, which consequently conspired its consecutive chronilogicallness in correspondance to collective culture correctly. Honestly, upon discovering this poem, I did not want to read 116 lines, but once I had finished I wanted to read 116 more, so that is what I am going to do.
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"Ask, react, question, bring in the light" is an amazing line. This was thoughtful and would be a great topic for an unbelievable conversation, or a prologue to part II. Thank you for sharing these thoughts.
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that was very good. i loved the way you carefully worded your own feelings into something so beautiful.
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Excellent write! I really respect and care how u felt and it wasan amazing way to express... i loved it early. Its one odf those good poems i have read this month...very bravo!!
keep up d good work...and i hope u read some of mine's too.
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