Seventy-one words.....
Seventy-one words....
Seventy-one words....
Tearing open my heart.
So closed upon the door
Reaching in darkness
Knowing nothing beyond
My hands....
So closed upon the door.
So closed upon the door.
So closed upon the door,
Was my heart.....
Dreaming of what has been lost
Scheming so, as to recover....
Praying for, the strength to carry on,
Begging for, the will to live....
So easily stricken I am.
Though I, can pretend, so well!
So easily broken I am,
Though I, can still raise hell!
All my energy
All my strength
Everything in me
I give to one pursuit.
You~
Love can bring,
Only tears it seems right now.
But for 92 days, I had,
All I dreamt of.
The pain washed away....
So when the gates were opened up
The pain, flooded in
With a new torrent!
Oh I am so bad at writing....
Nicole.......
The pain you bestowed upon me
I thought would surely destory!
However it turn out,
That my body and mind,
Are so much stronger than my heart!
Though I feel like I am dieing, the stasis
Is held so powerfully.
I wait for you,
I long for you,
And that shall never end.
I know too, that even in my last breath, everyhting shall
Be wasted on you.
My last breath, I know exactly its use,
I shall profess for my final morta moment, my love for you
My only wish, prayer, hope, goal, quest.
The only thing in this wretched life I live for is you!
Even if you are not mine, and even if you never are again, I shall live for you, as long as this body will drag on. Only your wish of my death shall let me fail, and only that or your return shall save me from my agony.
Still, it is possible, that christianity is correct,
So in that case, this is preperation for Hell
But if there is an abyss, I shall spend eternity in this same torment
And if there is reincarnation, I shall spend eternity of lifetimes looking for you, and loving you, and in again this torture, but at least able to figt to escape.
I condemned myself to this faith, so have no pity and do not grieve for it.... I chose this and would again, because somehow..its worth it...just to know I love you. My soulmate, I do think you are, for my soul and heart so yearn for you, I cannot deny their call...
Author notes
umm...not really a poem is it....
I love you Nicole...
Please tell me what you think
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I meant it when I said "I love you"... I don't meant to hurt you, I feel like a horrible bitch. I'm not sure I know what love is... Someone once told me that I love people because they pay attention to me, I'm starting to think that person is right... message me on here on myspace if you wish to... I'm sorry for everything, though I'm sure that doesn't mean much or help, but I'm sorry...
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Who said it, just out of curiosity?
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Who do you think? You've got 2 guess and I'm sure you'll get it right.
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I don't know what to do with you. My parents would kill me too if they knew I sent you a message... We both need to get help and you to continue, and maybe grow up a little more. Get some of life figured out, get ourselves figured out. This is going to sound stupid, but I'm not ready for forever or marriage or much of anything... though I want it more then anything. And believe me I know, the new you, will love me more then anyone ever could and treat me better then anyone ever could. But I want to be able to say that aswell... I don't deserve what you offer me, because I don't know if I can give it in return.
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You don't know what to do with me....well, to quote my old response "Love me, hold me, never leave me", oh, bugger, already did. *chuckles* Well, new plan then, seriously consider my proposition eh?
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somehow I managed to post the same message twice...soo...emm...now its not the same....
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