Trying to erase.....replace or deface
my blood stained memories of that day.
It happened all so fast, like a dream
accelerated...
fast forward in real time,
a blur of images,
a blink in time.
But it plays back and haunts my mind
in slow motion,
and then rewind,
over and over I see these visions
clearly....high definition,
frame by bloody frame,
snapshots, pictures, paintings,
stills.
Eyes wide open or tightly closed,
to me it's all the same.
I prefer behind closed doors,
so you don't see the rain falling...
bleeding down my face.
"Race cars race and memories fade"
at least that's what THEY say,
but the pictures never been clearer
and the colors always bright(red).
I sit and count the stars at night
and pray this nightmare stops
but it doesn't.....ever!
It keeps on running
reel to real
God, I wish that it was fake
and that she is just in the kitchen,
mixing up some cake....
but she's not......anymore.
I can make the cake myself,
but I can't bring her back....
and I can't hit the stop button,
there's only slow motion
and rewind.
Author notes
Love is unconditional.
My mom died in a car accident 3 years ago...I was in the van with her. If you need or want to understand it better, you could read this http://allpoetry.com/poem/2536328
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this is a great write, i loved when you said...
''But it plays back and haunts my mind
in slow motion,
and then rewind,
over and over I see these visions
clearly....high definition,
frame by bloody frame,
snapshots, pictures, paintings,
stills.''
this a a beautiful stanza, i loved the rest as well.
i've never felt the pain of losing a mother, i'm sorry you did... great write
thanx for sharing with me!
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wow... i am so very sorry. i can not even begin to imange the pain that must have brought you. thank you so much for entering my contest and best of luck.
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This is really good again, but I have to say I prefer your previous poem, though this has many fine poetic moments. Good luck and take care xxx
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I'm so sorry about you lost. Such a hard thing to go through.
Your poem has expressed so much of what you're feeling. It shows such saddness, pain and so much love you have.
My heart goes out to you.
Thank you for entering and Good Luck!
debbie -
I like how you put this in almost a movie sense. I am very sorry for your loss, it is always hard to lose someone, especially mothers, usually.
Just remember the good times you had with her, and never let her memory die, for when memories of something is forgotten, then it truly dies. So keep always, your memories of her alive, pass them down to your kids(if you do or will ever have any), and she will always exist.
~*~VampQueen
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you are getting so good at this, i love this one too! you write such beauty, love is all i feel when i read your work! good luck!
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WOW...this hurt to read I'm so terribly sorry for your loss my dear....the pain here was deeply intense and much more. Great Job.
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One of the most potent you've written about that day. Your mum will be proud of you, and I'm sure she still checks up on you. Remember, just because you cannot see it, doesn't mean it isn't there. A fantastic piece, especially how you've written the memory being like a tape or film that can never be deleted. Wonderful work!
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Wyatt I you.. you're amazing and I'm very sorry that this ever happened. Hold onto those good memories and never ever let go.
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