I've lost which i loved most and i don't know which is worse...The fact that i lost it, or the fact that i loved it...I'm beginning to think that the one that hurt the most was the fact that i loved it, because i have lost more things than i can even begin to count and i have only begun to believe that i could love anything.
The fact that i have lost the one which i have loved most is startling....
Mainly because i have just found out what love is so how am i even sure what love is?
How can i be so sure that that is really even love? I've only just begun to experience the feeling of love so how am i judging these feelings to be, that which i have just begun to understand? How can i be so sure that i can understand something i am only beginning to think i know how to pretend which i feel is the truth?
why can't i just forget about a lost loved one? why must i lose my mind about someone that probably didn't care about me?
How can i say i loved her? obviously i didn't love her if i hurt her... How can someone hurt someone else if they say they love them? I don't understand why i would do that to someone i love... i mean if you love someone that much than why would you hurt them?
Your supposed to love them enough that you wouldn't do that because you never want them to be in anytype of pain or heartache...
I just don't understand.
What is left for me..?
I have noone left,
Noone left to love..
Noone left to care about...
what is there?
i feel abandoned...
like there is nothing here...
nothing but pain,
nothing but sadness...
nothing but failure...
What can i do..?
I'm not good at anything...
nothing but hurting people...
I can't do anything right...
Everyone i knew was right...
I am Nothing but a Failure...
My love...My life...My everything...I am sorry i let you down...
I am sorry i hurt you...i am sorry i wasted your time...i am sorry..i am sorry...i am sorry...i love you...
Please tell me what you think
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You did a wonderful job at this piece. I am sorry that I have added to your struggles, and I fear that I know who this is written for, and I'm sorry. You are not a failure, you are a survivor. If you are just a failure than why are you alive? You have survived life thus far and you continue to survive. From day one you have gone from crawling to walking to running. And now you are doing the same thing again but in a different context. If you never fall and hit your face as you learn to walk, you will never be able to run to long awaited arms of the ones that care for you. You are not alone, and you never will be.
Bug -
who is this written about....? if it's okay to ask...regardles sit is beautiful...it made me cry...~sighs~ sadly I know this feeling, I felt it long ago but it is one that you never truely forget...
keep writting patrick, you have an amazing gift, one even I can only hope to dream of having one day.
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nice poem. a nice flow to it. keep em up.
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wow..i wish i could say more but i cant. this is very powerful and you are a great writer. i hope to continue to read your work and to be your friend.
Patt -
You're wrong. You're not just a failure. I've learned alot since we quit talking, and the most important thing I've learned is that no one is a failure as long as one person believes in them. I told you once I believed in you and it still holds true. You may have made some mistakes but hopefully you learned some things along the way. And if not, well you're still young. You still have time to grow and learn. I'm sorry for my part in screwing up your life. But I have never once regretted your friendship. Keep in touch.
Anaiya -
Wow... this write is very very well written. the last 3 lines were especially good. it sorta ties everything together and makes it whole.
Gr8 job 
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