Condemned

Independent
Strong willed
I strive for Perfection

Put upon my pedestal
All peers look up to me
I keep wishing for a normal life

Having answers
Knowing questions
Keeping secrets of seduction

Many nights I lay awake
With my fingers stroking below
With thoughts of you fulfilling me

You are dark cold and mean
A sarcastic bastard
Lashing out for your own selfish needs

Innocence as I maybe
My desires has flooded
My mind body and soul

I feel ashamed and dirty
Thinking of you
The way you push me around

You laugh cruelly
Wishing ill on all
Why do I torment myself so

I know what you are
And I know what your like
You a sadist to the full

When I surrender all control
And you abuse me beyond the full
I am released from my self-contained prison

Commanding my submissiveness
Dealing with me how you please
I am your rag doll

Though you may be rough
The pleasure exceeds the pain
Though I am thoroughly punished

Even now when I think back
The heat begins to pool
Starting in the pit of my stomach

Though my darker side is sedated
And my body completely worn
Still I hunger for completion

You are my everything
Because I gave myself up
To you though I am nothing

Just once I wish you'd hold me
Caress my body tenderly
Whispering gently through out the night