Waiting For Help

the tears drown out my face
there is no sight of it now
the pain i need to erase
but i just don't know how

i need to wash myself clean
rinse the stains off of my skin
release the anger to a scream
my defense is growing thin

shout loud my insecurities
until my lungs gasp for air
remove all of my impurities
until there is an end to my despair

i'm suffocating in the noise
of the sounds i cannot hear
the blasting silence only destroys
into the chaos i disappear

i am looking all around me
seeing nothing but a world of hate
from peace and truth its free
for sin and death its set the bait

and i live in this very place
in this world beyond corruption
its hard to keep a happy face
in a place bent on destruction

so how can i keep on going
when it takes away all the good
how can i keep showing
concern like i should

how can i go on trusting
the ones that mean the most
when lies are all they bring
and their full-of-self overdose

so maybe i'm better off alone
with no one by my side
the tears will have flown
and with no one to confide

i can just sit here by myself
alone in my despair
i'll wait for a better day
when someone my heart can repair