[ Skinny blond with big boobs ]

Skinny blond with big boobs
Perfect life right?
My father married my mother
Right after his first wife died
He never got over her
In fact, he always wonders
Out loud, what their kids
Would have been like
My father came to the hospital
To pick me up, drunk
When I was about five or six
My mother had my brother
(My father only ever wanted a son)
And promptly divorced my dad
It was then my mother considered
Giving us up for adoption
And she was caught in a deep depression

I am now nineteen
My parents still argue
And fight over us
My father believes if he takes
My younger brother, he can salvage him
Because me and my older sister
Are already ruined by our mother

I've never met a man I could trust
My father's old best friend
Tried to kill us all in our beds
My swim coach (swimming was the one sport I was good at)
Put a video camera in the girls bathroom
Now we're suing
My first (and only) boyfriend, used me for money
and actually told me one day (when we were still together)
"You know, if I hadn't known when we first that we were going
To have sex, we would have broken up a long time ago."
Since him, I have never dated, and had no will to date
All the guys that have asked me out, were in their thirties
And staring at my chest, no one has ever asked me out
For me
My father often tells me that out of all his kids
I'll be the first one to get divorced

My sister has been in and out of the hospital now for six months
They cannot figure out whats wrong with her
She keeps losing more and more weight, I'm really scared

All my teachers have told me that I am very bright
And could have gone anywhere
But I never felt good about myself, and never got the grades
I honestly don't believe love exists
Skinny blond with big boobs
Perfect life right?