January brings back porcelain memories,
Just as the blizzard surges out from behind winter’s sky
He left a glacial dagger in my humbled heart
February leaves me trapped
In labyrinth from past discrepancies
I feel so alone
March arrives with a monologue
Such a bittersweet symphony
Of dripping honey coated lies
April flashes me a new moon
Foolish illusions dancing beneath
I see radiance in his eyes;
He’s in love
May tosses over a clear portrait
Her beautiful finger sealed off with two-karat diamonds
And a mermaid’s dress so sparkling white
--She is proclaiming her vows to my prince
June embarks on a more blissful note
I’m on Flight 147 to a world away from past memoirs
Heading towards the Tahitian Islands
Where I can breathe
July; the past reveals its brutal face
I pity myself for losing the only man
Worth my tears
I wallow in my burdens
While these summer nights bloom with romance
August I see my reflection in the mirror
And I despise what I see
But I enjoy the scent of honeysuckle
As I sit on the edge of my untouched bed,
The sheets still remain tousled with rose petals
The smell of his fading cologne still lingers on his pillow
--I hold it close to my heart
September must love me dearly
For it sent me another man
Yet something is missing,
I still don’t feel complete
October leaves gently fluttering around me
Two years ago today would mark our anniversary
Reality awakens me;
I am nowhere near ready to move on
--Here comes the spoon and a tub of vanilla ice cream
November I decide that he is not the one for me
I cannot commit myself to a life of fairytale fibs
With a man so sweet now
Only to turn sour afterwards
December strolls along the snow-covered streets
I see his hand delicately rubbing her belly
--She’s going to have a baby
But I should be the woman kissing him ever so passionately
I should be the woman with his little bundle of joy sleeping in her womb
I should be the woman with that ring on her finger
She stole my life from beneath me,
She destroyed every ounce of bliss I besieged
I hate her.
I love him.
As the seasons changed,
My love for him only grew;
I stayed the same plain Jane I have always been,
And I lost him
Like the sun loses its light when the sky turns grey
What shall one do when their world comes tumbling down?
I am such the hopeless wreck
Bronze trophy winner
Gold trophy winner
Silver trophy winner
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-♥Amanda♥
