First Hand Heartbreak

My hands on my head
I'd be better off dead
'cause I thought that it was over
But it came right back to haunt me

'cause i wish i could turn back time

So i could fix all the problems
That we made
That hurt us
But when i look back now
I can see that it was too fucked up to change
In the first place

But if we stayed true to ourselves
Didn't mind anyone else
Their schemeing words to split us
I bet it would be better
But how would i know
I made mistakes too

If we listened to our hearts
Not our hurting heads
We would still be in love
shut off in our world
With not a fear in our mind

I can't loose you
You were as much my soul as i was
But i listened to those poison words
Things will never be the same

We lacked the trust we needed
We overplayed our flaws
Nothing was good enough
For the rest of them

You still love me
I thought I didn't
All those nights wasted crying
I guess I do

Will you be my friend
For when time hurts the most
Will you let me be your shoulder
When you lack something to lean on

I need you
And its not fair
Because i can't have it
You never know what you have 'till its gone
I learned the hard way
The most painful way
first hand