[ if i could have just one day ]

if i could have just one day
would i choose a day of magic
a day of white fur and glistening hooves
of rainbows and cliches and magical things
or would i settle for mundane
the thing that i want the most
is for my prince to come
hes just human
like you or me
but somehow hes become all i wanted
so i can't think or sleep
and i have this void that i try to fill
with other things
material
with damaged things
that were never meant to satisfy
but only to entertain
because this is what happens
when we get more than we deserve
and more than we need
and it was too much
but we thought not enough
all i want his him now
no clothing or monsters
no damaged things
or damaged people
but if i could only have him
for there is this void in me i cannot fill
and my words are not as sensual
and sexual
and desperate as they seem
but i miss him
and love him
with such a strong desire
a day of moonlight
24 hours
where i could finally have my heart back
for i haven't been able to breathe in such a long time
unless i breathe deep
and think of him
and i feel whole
and when hes gone
i'll die a little bit inside
every second hes gone
so ill try to fill this void i have with food
and material things
and maybe thats why im so messed up inside
but i want him so bad
and i need him
and its killing me
and im dying inside
and its not a sad poem
or an angry poem
but a lonely poem
and if it was unicorns or mundane things
i would choose him
and just hold him
not saying anything
until my final moments came
and i would want to know everything about him
everything
every tear
every laughter
until it was up
and i could cherish that memory
and never let it go