The FIRST Thanksgiving...
Was three months since you died & five days after Megan went to be an angel too,
The FIRST Christmas...
With two Angels in heaven & My heart broken & didn't think this could be true,
The FIRST New Year...
Only turned into just another ordinary day with nothing about it,
The FIRST Valentine's Day...
I went to the cemetary & at night I had a candle lit,
The FIRST Birthday of Yours...
I talked to you but only you weren't there... just a stone,
The FIRST Birthday of Mine...
We didn't go fishing like we always did...I felt so alone,
The FIRST Easter...
I worked & watched the little kids with their dads,
The FIRST Fourth of July...
I looked at the sky imagining flying up there so bad,
The FIRST Anniversary of Your Death...
God Only Knows...It will be here in hours but as with all the First holidays....It will be hard & it will hurt but I know that I must face this day.
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Written August 12th, 2003
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hey i know how you feel
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It's really sad hearing all you have had to go through, but at least your still goin at it, life is ment to be lived, death is to be mourned, never forgotten, but should never hold you back, because those that have gone, that have cared for you, want you to do the best that you can, and to be happy. good luck and i hope there are many more happy times for you to come in your life.
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Hey!!
Beautiful poem again your talent shows through!!
Your dad will no doubt be watching over you on this terrible day!! Be strong and brave and remember even though you can't see him doesn't mean he's not there!!
Lots of hugs!!
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It's really sad how many tragedies you have been through and how strong you've stayed throughout all of them. It's good to see you've been keeping in touch with your father even though you are in reality talking to a stone. Good luck.
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In honor of your dad and Vicki and Megan I have a candle from St. Joseph's Church in Norman, Oklahoma, lit that I got when my mother was in ICU this past February to burn. I was staying in Hospitality House and I was concerned smoke from candle might set off an alarm and I'd get in trouble so I never lit and lit one at church instead. They had plastic rosaries in all sorts of colors and I got my mother a turquoise and me a pink. John Edward and SQuire Rushnell of whengodwinks.com would say it was a God Wink from my mom to tell you your dad is okay and she is okay that par chance I found this candle today. As I type you right now it is lit. I have been up since 5:30 a.m. because I didn't want you to think I didn't want to read your poems so, hopefully, my computer worked and I could let you know computer problems. I got a rectangular box that kept saying can't access this page anywhere I tried to go. Do you ever get candles at church? You can either light them there or bring them home with you to light. I love religious stores too. I wish one was nearby because I feel so close to God and my loved ones in religious store. To me, religious items are only tangibles (like string around your finger) to remind us of things VERY important to us. Working in a religious item store would be like Christmas every day I think. I always feel such spirituality inside a Christian store like Mardels. Mardels was begun in OKC and we just got them here near Dallas in Lewisville. I have a candle lit for your dad and friends...and my loved ones too. Drama Kings and Queens...you know I think they are all up there looking down on you and me worried about us. Yesterday, I told my boss he hadn't realized how sad I was since mom died because I was hiding it and how your calling me Cyber mom has healed a lot of that sadness. Thank you Sara Dawn. This St. Joseph Candle should stay lit for about seven hours. They have some HUGE ones that last about 24 in large glass holders.
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a beautiful poem, keep strong my friend - u can get through this, God bless xxx
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I'm sorry to hear about your father's death, but this is a beautiful poem. Very emotional (but I find emotion beautiful so it's okay) & sweet.
Good luck getting through this
-Sock-
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Beautiful tribute to your father. I will leave something at your authors page, as I don't want points for what I have to say. Mary Anne
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i'm sorry to hear you lost your father. it must be a tough process to go through the first year without him. i feel for you. thanks for sharing--> it was touching to read
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awww, thats sad.
-Kay
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