Between You and Me There is.....

Your face fills me with memories
And regrets
I see your smile and wonder
Why was it never that with me?
I don't know you anymore
Your ailments and struggles
I understood
But your thought process and drinking
I never could

You're half way across the world
And that's how it feels inside
Even when you come back
I don't think much will change
Your rain has drown me out
The man I once knew you as
Has all but disappeared
If we met face to face today
I don't even think I'd see you there

I still wonder about what it would have been like
If things were different
Who would we be?
I don't think we would have done one another
Any good
I tried
We both failed
I'm tired of trying, of missing you
And it seems to you my words have grown stale

I miss your laughter
All the late night calls
I miss going out with you and just
Being free
You saved me
I'm sorry I never did the same for you
I tried and tired and tried again
I loved you and you left
Why did it end?

I don't know your purpose in my life
It feels like I've od-ed when I think of us
I remember holding you as you cried
And my heart breaks when I cry myself
To sleep over you
You will never see the tears
Or understand the grief
But I hope some time when we run into each other again
You smile at me, no matter how brief