[ Facing her past ]

Facing her past
Things she once tried to hide
To herself she lied
By saying everything’s fine
When inside she was falling to pieces
Hiding behind a fake smile
With tears behind her eyes

She hid it well
She was proud
She fooled everyone
But now has fooled herself

Suicide seemed like a solution
Whether permanent or not
Wanted it all to end
Didn’t want
To wait and see
Running low on hope
The things she thought would be
With bottle in hand
She attempted
What no one thought she’d do
One more scar
That marks her heart
Tears her in two

Along the broken path
She fell
Time and time again
Stood up and then tripped
Hopeless is what it seemed
The path controlling her
Not how it should be

Undeserving of help
From anyone who loved
They didn’t deserve to see
This misery that kills her
That wakes her in the night
With frightening nightmares
That make her cry
Make tears well behind her eyes

She’s unwilling to see
The strength she’s hid
Not listening to the ones
Who say they understand
It’s all just a lie
They’ll leave her behind
It’ll be like that
Til the day she dies