Just Don't Know

I just don't get it why is this game of life I feel I keep getting a step closer to changing to becoming someone but as if I will never be this ideal person this person they all want I don't know what to do. I am trying to change this path all written down but instead I feel I am walking path just isn't for me and I am walking it for other reason but I just don't get it I just don't understand. Life is so rough so hard I grew with problems I became child who just so scared to grow up. How can I know its okay to grow up and I will be a change and not just another mistake. Does anyone see what I see feel what I feel or am just stupid person has no rights has no feelings. Goish don't u people see I am sick of tears I am running out of everything that life is giving please people just seek me threw tell me I be okay tell me I am doing it for the right of cause. I don't know just don't know anymore.