I sit in loneliness’ council haunted,
forever ends with silent squealing quivers.
Dreams fade into lost realities vision
of a long ago time in my saddened life.
Looking back on broken promises,
misunderstood allegations of affairs.
Arguments boil over rapid tempers,
like water on a scorching stove.
With each beat of love scarred deeply,
bloody tears cascade inner chambers.
As deception pulls rivers openly wild,
leaving pain solidly out of control.
Screaming in echo’s across emptiness,
darkness slithers in like shadows on walls.
Clinging on your words with razors burn,
slicing interior slayings upon every flow.
Each tortured moment we take,
rips eternal abundance from our hearts.
Beaconing romance to come to life,
dripping sarcastic wounds instead.
A child stolen from desired wanting,
as adultery invades like war erupting.
She tore away my souls mate for life,
with unshakable faith I broke inside.
Dyeing in shallow graves of deceit,
dwelling in hidden grounds of madness.
I set up residency on addictions row,
begging on knees pleading with sorrow.
Grabbing at delusions waved before me,
illusions suction my horrid natured self.
A sanctuary of evil chained my spirit tight,
whips strike cracks of memories past events.
Tormenting demons claw my thoughts,
gnawing away family and friends.
Only to depend on playful phantoms dens,
caressing every habitat of judgment left.
Leaving me in a coma of insanity,
praying to justifiably survive...
Author notes
This was long ago when I was 18 and married...My husband had an affair and a child was conceived during the affair.Needless to say we divorced and I went into a darkness I had never known before...
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- love= Heartbreak by Hearts.That.Bleed.
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Very heartbreaking moments to experience. The words show your pain and strength.
Thanks for entering.
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Wow absolutely Perfect!!
this is i'm glad to say EXACTLY what i've been looking for. These words you've so expertly penned down describe Heartbreak and it's affects perfectly. To love someone so much and yet have them turn to another and give that love to them instead to who it really belongs to is truly heartwrenching. But know that what he did to you is his loss and you are way too good for someone like that. Thank you for entering my contest and goodluck
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Unexplored new uncharted territory is extremely scary like you have dealt with here and it is sad that your husband at that time cheated on you and oh well his loss but sorry you went into a depe raging dark depression like battle. any ways very well penned and very well done. nice work loved the imagery built into this and felt that e-motion through out as well. good work
Signed, Paul 
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