No More

No more will I try
No longer will I hide
These deep feelings I've kept inside

Cause I've been so tired
And I am so alone
No more will I say "Im fine"
In that stupid fake tone

No longer will I pretend
My heart; I can't defend
I don't want to do this anymore
For me; this is the end

So much like a child, I carelessly plead
For you just to listen
For you to just see
Cause Im down here again
In this awful, lonely space
And I need you more then ever
To help me find my place

Why can't you be there, why don't you care?
Inside I am dying, empty, as I stare
At everything around me
Why am I the only one?
That seems to be this way
My heart, wasted
I am alone again today

Its been so long since Ive felt okay
I need someone to understand
Cause Its all so hard for me
I don't know how I got here
But somehow now I see
I wasn't meant to be like this
This wasn't planned for me

I question everything, so much like a fool
Cold glances and fake personalities are the constant theme at school
I am far, I am distant, I am untouchable
I am constant, and I am concrete,
I am empty, I am full
I am my own enemy, a constant runaway
I hate the way I've been, sick of feeling this way
I desperately need a friend
For I am broken beyond repair
I am bitter, and I am cold, letting no one in

And though I still dont know my purpose
I think my life will be
It has to...
Doesn't it?
I can't do what I please

And if you must know
Yes, this has gone on very long
Yes...
Depression has been my song.




Now please.
Oh please.


...no more.