save me from myself

another fight
supressed by awkward silences
and slammed doors
my mind is racing
why can't they just understand
they act like they know me first hand
they don't know anything
what i go through everyday
the things i have to deal with
my anger gets stronger
they just don't have a clue
and i dont know what to do
maybe it's me
maybe everything really is my fault
that's what they seem to think anyway
the things i need to say start to build
well i know im right
and i feel like i have to fight
i have to fight for my opinion
i know they are wrong
and they have to know
everything they need to hear flashes in my mind
they have to know my side of it
or im afraid my fuse will soon be lit
but when i try to tell them the truth
im either "talking back"
or i am being disrespectful
frustration becomes my best friend
so how am i ever supposed to talk, theres no use
so i brace my lips with my invisible lock
i feel like a time bomb
and i know that i'm packed with plenty of dynamite
but i don't know when i'll go off
the fuse is getting shorter
with every word i don't say
and i get worse every day
i just wish everyone knew
i wish they knew what i was thinking
and how i feel
my unspoken pain is just too much
i wish they could just see that im carrying such a heavy load
...oh someone please help me before i explode