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Lost Herself

November,
The month
that she will never forget
which will be know as
The month
she had her heart completely torn into pieces...
November,
The month
she lost herself.

I am being tested,
to see whether or not im over him
so i can be happy again
even though i wont have him


I didn't want to stay alone
for I would realize how much i'd rather
be by myself

How can
everyone be so different
and yet so much the same

There are so many other people in this world
so I know I can go on
and I forget all about him
but then it hits me
all the hurt and love that is still given to him

I make those thoughts and feelings go away
until another day when I'm reminded of him
and try to let go of them and cry my heart out
thinking of what I had and lost
and know I will never be the same.

yet I still think of him everyday that goes by
and I wonder if they will ever go away
or if they will continue to haunt me
for there is nothing I can do to go back and change the past,
so I'm left alone.

This is the last time,
I will try to go on with my life and be the person I used to be
which seemed to have been buried
along with the crumble of the relationship
but I have to trust
I will find me again...
one day

Moving on,
back to the day when everything ended
when we are not together,
I will stay by myself
for fear of everything will rush back.

I will hide myself from you
and everything so I will
stop seeing,
stop hearing,
and I will stop myself from falling back down
again
hoping I'll stop thinking about you.

I will try once more
to stop myself from falling for you
because I need to move on
to find me
and everything I need.

Author notes

Based off the song November by Azure Ray
i wrote this a while back when struggling to move on and that song always seemed to hurt the most when i heard it.
-hanhan1026

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  • forget my memories
    June 26, 2007
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    Great write thank you so much for entering my contest good luck.

  • pozo
    June 17, 2007

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    This is a sad poem. 'i' needs capitalising and you need to put apostrophes in 'im', 'didnt' 'wont' and 'ill'. I hope this isn't personal and if it is I hope you get over him
    Pozo


    • hanhan1026
      June 18, 2007
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      thanks for the feedback... i wasnt expecting this to be a poem so i didn'f worry about capitalizing anything but thank you very much and actually it is kind of personal but thanks


  • Beating gold member
    June 16, 2007

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    "how can
    everyone be so different
    and yet so much the same"
    Really like those lines. This is a really sad piece. Like being trapped in your own emotions. Wow!


    • hanhan1026
      June 17, 2007
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      thanks a lot... i felt trapped in my emotions while writin it... glad that came through... thanks again


  • Xxthe angry gothxX
    June 15, 2007

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    Maybe its a good thing you had your friend guiding you. remember something though, i know realationships...weird. i think you did a really good thing. if they are in your mind, they are more than likly there for a reason. obviously, wel thought. but this was very collected and well put together.


    • hanhan1026
      June 15, 2007
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      thanks... yeah im just trying to figure out how to get it out of my mind


  • Lyric Serrenia
    June 15, 2007

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    hehe. You listened to me for once.

    I like it. Especially since it was based off of that song.

    I don't have much to say, other than I'm sorry.


    Bravo, Ms. Peanut, Bravo.


    ~Bear~

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