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Paternal Disavowal

When I was
growing up,
You were a man
I was afraid of you
and terrified of the effect
you could have on my life.
This day I stand here
shaking before you
vehemently disagreeing
with every breath you breathe
watching your tremors shape them
into the slithery spiral of vapor that
trails from your mouth as you speak
but I thought you weren't smoking anymore
Is that what makes you blind?
Your thirst for nicotine,
or control?
Or is it just the fear of losing your pride
in the wake of narcissistic entitlement
you're leaving behind?

I thought I could make a difference
I thought I would make you see
there is so much more to life for you
not only just for me

Who was I to think
that a savior is what you'd need?
I should have known by now
so much weight in
the source of the seed
the warnings were clear
I chose not to take heed
my choice where to wear
my heart when it bleeds
wanting you to see me
and all you taught me to be
instead of just hiding
for no one to see
to think now I contemplate
my sincerest apology
lesson obvious here
no more miscommunication please
no more senseless validation
I need a permanent vacation
It's time to move on
for me.

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  • Redstormy gold member
    July 16, 2007

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    Fascinating

    "Your thirst for nicotine,
    or control?
    Or is it just the fear of losing your pride
    in the wake of narcissistic entitlement
    you're leaving behind"

    I love the contemplation in these lines. Very well written poem.. very reflective. I like that


  • Endeavor gold member
    June 14, 2007

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    Good


    no more senseless validation
    I need a permanent vacation
    It's time to move on
    for me.

    Interesting format with close rhyme
    Good ending wraps this up

    Rick


  • Aphroheidi
    June 13, 2007

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    Fantastic!

    Great title...I can feel your passion for the situation! I especially like "vehemently disagreeing"...now that's' passion