Thankyou.

Thanks to you,

I know how to look out for myself.

I know how to keep myself from being hurt.

Thankyou for all the mean things you said to my face,

Thanks for saying your sorry when you didnt mean it.

Thanks for telling your friends I was a slut and that I was easy,

Even though I would never have done anything with you and I am not easy.

So thankyou for being so selfish with your words.

Thankyou for all the tears and self hate.

Thanks for the eating disorder.

Thanks for making it so hard for me to keep friends becuase doing things that used to be fun made me depressed.

Thanks for making going to a new school a complete nightmare.

Thanks for making the entire freshman class make fun of me on a daily basis becuase I liked you.

Thanks for treating me so poorly and not even admitting that you had feelings for me,

While I would admit that I still liked you.

Thanks for telling me I was a worthless bitch that no one would ever love and that I should change everything about myself if I ever wanted anyone to like me or any other boy to want to date me.

Thanks for making me feel like no one loves me.

Thanks for making me see myself in a different light, thanks for basically killing me.

Thankyou for assuming I was suicidle and telling all of your friends how gross I was then got your friends to just make it even worse.

Thanks for telling me to kill myself becuase you were embaressed that you would have ever dated someone like me.

Thanks for being so ashamed of me becuase I dress the way I want to and I'm not stick skinny.

Thanks for telling me you cared about me when you didnt mean it.

Thanks for being so fast with me and not cosidering my feelings at all, ever.

Thanks for telling all of your friends how ugly I was, and then letting them say stuff to me. And it still hurts, trust me.

Thanks for taking my trust and completely killing it.

Thanks for making my trust for boys completely disapear.

Thanks for making me never trust anyone.

I can honestly say that since I dated you I have changed emmensly.

You know, your lucky I even talked to you.

What, do you think your special or something?

I'm seriously scared to death of having feelings for anyone.

Thats not an exageration. When you have feelings for someone it should make me happy, it shouldent scare you to the point of hiding everything and make you feel bad.

When I have feelings for someone I get scared. I mean, it just freaks me out.

I'm afraid of getting hurt all over again,

I'm afraid to give any boy a chance.

When I like a guy I never say anything now,

Or I just get so nervous and feel stupid.

So thanks.

So thanks.

Thanks for killing me.