My rootless tree

I am holding on to a leaf
A tired, weathered leaf
It is getting torn slowly
The more I hold on to it
Broken is its tree
The branches are sick
Blood oozing slowly
From their lips
The tree has no roots in the ground
Just like me
We're holding on to each other's hands
But our grabs are lessening each day
I'm getting tired from holding into this illusion
Holding into this poor, dead tree
Which is getting tired from holding me
Getting heavier each passing day
Its branches are shaking
In silent pleading
'Release me'
My hands still grabbing hard this yellow leaf
In desperate hope of surviving
Tears running down my cheeks
I don't want to kill it
But I don't want to die either
Turning at last
That none of us can survive while the other exists
I closed my eyes
Grabed a knife, planted it in the rocks
And pulled the tree with all I've got
Screams could be heard
Screams of pain and hopelessness
The rootless tree falls down the cliff
And lays at the bottom of the bottomless valley
Wounded, bleeding crimson blood
I killed my friend to survive
Finally, her screams won't haunt my dreams
Finally, I can live without her fears
Her scared eyes won't scare me any more
I've released her like she asked
I've let her go,
What more can she me ask for?
I lay my head down on the pillow
Close my eyes peacefully and drift to sleep
Only to be awakened by screams
Vivid pain running down my body
Guilt invading me again
Now the guilt of letting her die
Won't desirt me until I die
I who killed my friend to survive,
Will live a nightmare unless I end my life
Turning at last
None of us can survive while the other doesn't exist
My rootless tree, I'm coming for you
To hold your weathered branches forevermore