driven [in the direction of fate]

as i sit reminicing of the times we hard
i wonder if we were ever meant to be at all
all those nights [bright eyed and starry skies]
  sitting under our tree
remember those promises
  of hope[maybe one day perfection will work out]
of drug induced dreams [the pain could be drunk, swalloed, or cut away]
and of pure lust [the thing we had[i guess it wasn't love]

i just wish in some way i could comprehend what happened
    were all those kisses just distraction
[a cover up]
  for all the lies whispered into my ears
i just wish [upon all our cursed stars]
  that maybe this luck could be more than peremnant
that this bond could continue through

btu we all know love is just a distraction
  [for all the glamour]
or should i say for all the pain

  it was right in front of our eyes

what went wrong?