Once

Once there was a boy named Ian, whose eyes were as beautiful as the stars. He never ever let me down and there was barely a time that he wasn't with me when i needed him to be.
We kissed in the rain and danced in smoke, he meant the world to me, and he said that if he ever left he'd be counting the days until we could be together again.

Once, i cared whether or not he stayed, but then i left him behind.
i always warned him never to fall in love with someone like me, but he obviously didn't listen.

Once, i went to a certain party, i was so gone that i wasn't thinking. we were on a break, so i didn't need to worry, i just didn't expect him to see me & mike kissing.
Once, Ian said that suicide was stupid, but i guess he's just another hypocrite. Ian decided to end his life, but in doing that, he also shattered my world. I fucked up so bad that i can no longer find tears to let out, so i spend my nights just staring at the blank wall, trying to understand why Ian had to die.