Pain

Looking inside for the power to help
but the well comes up dry
fighting the ache that comes with those words
holding back tears of pain
invisibility over words on a screen
no way to tell the difference
taking it all at face value i lie
hypocritically, i allow no one else to lie
i know the difference, and fight for it
where others take all at face value
the pain comes from the lecture
i'm not stupid, not when it comes to that
i saw the parallels
but it hurt and i was a third wheel
so i said nothing
but that doesn't mean i don't know!
i feel like an eavesdropper
listening in where i shouldn't
as the conversation goes on
those words stick with me
they poison me when i'm already vulnerable
amplifying ache and pain and fears already born
the more i listen the more pain it fosters
i'm sinking like dead weight
but i cannot get rid of this...
pain...