Everday, I wake up without the answers.
But knowing the questions all too well.
Who am I going to be?
Will my life ever get to find me?
I hope that it will, somehow,someway.
So many hopes, so many dreams yet to come true.
I know that they will, just not today.
Yesterday's gone, and tommorrow's waiting for me,
Yet it seems as if time stands still.
They say that all things change,
Yet, for me they remain the same.
Here in the dark, searching for the light.
I know that I'll find it, somehow, someway.
I know that I will, I guess just not today.
I've done all that I can to keep despair away,
but it just won't ever let me be.
Yet still, I keep up the faith,
There's something out there for me someplace.
I just hope whatever it is, it makes it here in time.
'cause pain is gaining on me,
I just hope that he stays away.
I know that he will, I guess just not today.
Author notes
This was written about 15 years ago, during a time of great despair in my life. Looking back, I can still feel the frustration that plagued me so. As a sufferer of chronic pain, that ultimately led to severe depression, this was an expression of hope, the little that I had left at the time. I'm thankful that I held onto it, as the saying goes, "and this too shall pass". Acceptance was the key, all too often we look to see that which we don't have, or that which we lost. Accepting my circumstances took a great deal of time, and in the interim, cost me a great deal. I'm grateful for everything in my life now,even those hard times from which I've learned so much...Napoet
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I loved this poem and I am glad that you were able to hold on. a very inspirational piece with great words of wisdom. thank you for entering and good luck in my contest.
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great job. loved these amazing lines.
Yesterday's gone, and tommorrow's waiting for me,
Yet it seems as if time stands still.
They say that all things change,
Yet, for me they remain the same.
Here in the dark, searching for the light.
I know that I'll find it, somehow, someway.
I know that I will, I guess just not today.
I've done all that I can to keep despair away,
but it just won't ever let me be.
Yet still, I keep up the faith,
There's something out there for me someplace.
I just hope whatever it is, it makes it here in time.
'cause pain is gaining on me,
I just hope that he stays away.
I know that he will, I guess just not today.
just wow.
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Wow, such a brave piece and ty for allowing us to read such personal subject for you...I too have battled some of these kinds of days and all i can say is , there are brighter days in store for you..you have explained exactly what depression is and feels like...I have many patients who suffer from this and its an evil cunning illness...I hope this finds you better and on a better path and knw I am always here to spread some sunshine and got good shoulders to lean on too...
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poeple say if you keep the faith you seem to the good come in many way keep writing
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Uh oh, I think you may have hooked me with your writing as I'm really enjoying what you have posted here. lol. This subject is deep and meaningful. It's also a familiar one for me, not for me myself so much, but my best friend used to battle depression pretty bad, so I got to witness the effects of it a lot through her. I like how you brought the depression across as it's powerful yet not in the emo/cheesy category by any means. It's written in a way that I could feel what you went through. I'm sure it wasn't with the same extremes you underwent, but I got a strong sense of it all the same. Your whole "just not today" idea was excellent. Such a simple little wrap-up line for your stanzas, but the way you tied it together was so good. A simple line holding so much depth and punch. This one made me think of an AC/DC lyric from the Bon Scott time:
"One of these days I'm going to change my evil ways...
until then I'm just going to keep riding on."
Your first two lines alone were gripping for me...the whole question and answer idea. A thread with two ends...there can't be one without the other. A question and an answer. Makes me think of a lesson I heard from the 70's tv series 'Kung Fu': Perhaps it's not the answer that needs to be so earnestly sorted out - Perhaps it's the meaning and understanding of the question itself that really matters. Excellent job again!
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"Acceptance was the key"!
If ever there was an appropriate title, this one certainly is. "Just Not Today"
You analysed your situation well and came to grips with the realities facing you. Your attitude is excellent, "and this too shall pass". At times we must needs acknowledge that the passage of time and the fading of the 'freshness' or intensity of experiences is the only thing that will dull the pain and allow us to move on.
Congratulations on being wise enough to allow hope to bring you through. Jadon
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Not finding words just now, give me a minute... Sorrow and bitterness mingled with hope. A hope that you hold yet seems so far away. This piece is moving in so many ways.
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Will my life ever get to find me?
some great lines in here, i think far too many peope will elate to this. you wrote about despair so well..i could really feel the depression sinking in..i think it will be interesting to look back on my work when i'm older..i'm glad you chose to post this. thanks for sharing.
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