Best Friends Till Then... (updated)

From the day I met him,
I guess you could say;
I already knew I loved him,
My heart showed me that day.
It began to beat a little faster,
As I looked into his eyes.
My breath came a little slower,
For it was then I realized.
That standing there in front of me,
Was my one true love.
Sent down to Earth,
From the Lord above.
He gave me a hug,
As I was about to leave.
From then until I got him,
I never had a dry sleeve.
I know I’ll never forget,
Our very first kiss.
Just looking to that day,
Sends me to memory bliss.
So soft, so tender, so sweet,
Perfect in every way.
If it were only possible,
I’d go back to that day.
Everyone said in time,
That we would have our first fight.
I hoped this didn’t happen,
And prayed with all my might.
So life continued happy,
And as the time went by,
Just hearing the name Jimmy,
Would always make me sigh.
It really didn’t matter,
That they weren’t talking about him.
Not even knowing this,
Would make my heart dim.
I thanked my lucky stars,
For making me happy that way.
Now I only dread,
Of thinking of what happened that day.
A feeling in my stomach,
Told me something wasn’t right.
I didn’t think much of it,
As I fell asleep that night.
I came home to an officer,
With senses not so keen.
Through my tears I could barely hear him,
Couldn’t comprehend what he did mean.
Only minutes later,
My mind finally came through.
I realized what was said,
And wished it weren’t true.
My life spun before me,
Instantly I began to cry.
The only words I could think of,
Was how, why?
What did I do to deserve this?
Did I somehow make my own bed?
This feeling in my stomach,
Makes me want to be dead.
He said our time was over,
An IED in Iraq.
I couldn’t comprehend-
Jimmy wasn’t coming back.
He stood up for what he believed in,
Which caused his own fall.
Jimmy wasn’t doing it for Jimmy,
He did it for us all.
They want me to move on,
But that’s not possible for me.
I want things the way they were,
How life used to be.
My heart breaks again,
Just thinking of the past.
I would’ve given anything,
For time to have not moved so fast.
I know we’ll be together,
It just won’t work right now.
He said he’ll always love me,
I truly know that now.
Every night as I lay in bed,
And try to go to sleep.
I become hot and dizzy,
Again begin to weep.
The tears will not stop flowing,
As I lay there and stare.
Next to my bed is our picture,
You can see the love that’s there.
We’re in each other’s arms,
The way that it should be.
True love really lasts,
It always will for him and me.
I know this is the real thing,
It’s never been like this before.
As happy as we were,
We couldn’t have given any more.
I love him more than ever,
Even though he’s no longer here.
My time with him was precious,
I’ll always hold it dear.
I just am not me,
When I am not with you.
My life is as good,
As if it were through.
You said the way you felt,
Was said in “This I Promise You,”
Now that you left,
What am I to do?
You promised me forever,
And that’s how I had it planned.
You could never be replaced-
You were my right hand man.
I stayed up all last night,
Waiting for an answer to my prayer.
Nothing ever came,
And I never felt any better.
I began to wonder,
If I was meant to be with you.
But the answer stays the same,
And I don’t know what to do.
My brain says start to move on,
My heart says don’t let go.
My stomach knots inside me,
And I still don’t really know.
You were my first,
And meant everything to me.
This makes me really happy,
We made perfect memories.
But now that you have left,
There’s just so much pain.
No more days are sunny,
And the clouds are filled with rain.
You became such a hero,
To myself and all your friends.
The Army didn’t deserve you.
It wasn’t time for your life to end.
I could never be more proud,
Of who you came to be.
You touched the lives of so many,
And was everything to me.
I know how proud,
You always made your Dad.
And you’ve been the best Brother,
Mike and Tom could have had.
Husband, Son, Brother, and Friend-
In our hearts you will live on.
You could never be forgotten,
No matter how long you’re gone.
You said we’ll be together forever,
I know my chance will come again.
I love you now more than ever…..
“Best Friends Till Then.”