++Fucked Up++

If I can't do this naturally
Maybe I'll do it a different way
Been a while since I talked to you
But I find I have nothing to say
We hurt each other
It's something you should understand
I'm sorry I betrayed you
But we can't go back
No matter how much I say sorry
It won't take away the pain
You know it's funny, I still think
of you, every time it rains
I don't hate you and I don't love
you
I can't talk to you but sometimes
I wonder if you're okay
No matter what I guess you once mattered
But there's no more left to say
You wanna know how you hurt me
Then I'll tell you how and why
You always pushed me away
You always left me to cry
YOu didn't know how much I loved you
I would've died for you
But we were falling apart so fast
We were less than lovers, more than
friends
But became nothing oh so fast
Now there's a whole bunch of people
in the way
And we can never talk again
When I'm not in your nightmares
Do you think  of me then?
Do you miss having me around?
Do you miss the times?
No I guess we both knew it was over
That isn't a crime
I will never hate you, I'm less than
disappointed in you
Because I guess I should've known
after the first 3 times that you'd
still treat me that way
But you never talked to me
If you did, we could've worked through
it and been okay today
But you pushed me away and closed
yourself off to me, and so you wouldn't say
I'm not hurting anymore
I don't know why you want me out of
your life when I've already been out of it
YOu left a big scar on my heart
Like I did on yours
We both felt the same
Questioned what we were living for
I have so much to say
But I know in my heart we can never
be friends
It's fucked up to think
That this is how it ends.