Telling him how daddy hurts me, makes me cry and scream
Asking him why could I not have a daddy like him
Kind and good wanting to help instead of hurt
I tell him how no one knows what daddy does that he hides it very well
When we go to church every one smiles and says he is a good man
He kneels down and bows his head praying to god I wonder if god hears him
I bow my head and pray too but I pray for release, for salvation
We listen to what the father says telling us of your goodness and of your kindness to every one even sinners
The father tells us of what not to do, to use you as our guide
I sneak a peak at my daddy to see if he hears what the father says
Each night I pray and I pray that this will be the day
That daddy goes by what the father says
Each time daddy comes to my room he ends my prayer in crying and screams
I whimper and cry as I tell him Jesus will make him pay
Looking down at me laughing he says he has every right to punish me for being such a naughty girl
He quotes the bible saying spare the rod spoil the child
Grabbing his crotch he tells on that he will-never spare me his rod For the lord says not to
He tells me I am dirty that I was born dirty and this is the only way for me to be clean and good
He says this is the way of our lord Jesus Christ
Walking away from my shaking, pain-filled body he laughs at all my silly prayers
So now I know, I know it was Jesus who raped my soul
Took my innocence for a sin I did not commit
Took my blood and pain as payment for living a life I do not want
No more prayers from this naughty girl
No mercy for this lost soul
No beauty left of this ravaged, raped body
For Jesus Raped Me
Author notes
Sad to say but this is kinda true I wrote it to keep the memories at bay and to try and Rid my self of the demons that fill my soul. DemonChild
A contest entry
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Gold trophy winner
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Wow. This piece was honestly brutal and upfront as anything I have ever read. I think it's horrible and tormenting to have to endure and go through something such as this. I guess a lot of comments have been made about "Dont Give Up On Jesus" and etc. I honestly can say to you, that if that's where you find the blame, then nobody can change your mind. Not one bit of preaching or testifying about this "Jesus" is gonna do that. Because so much anger and hate is towards this hypocritical man that is your father, the one who was doing the "will of the "lord" .. I think there are MANY hypocrites out there. You just gotta pick and choose who you get close to. Straight up, I'm an Atheist. *shrugs* I don't care to bother with the shit of some people. So, I stay away from it, and deal with myself.
I respect everyone's own religion and opinion though, no matter how insignificant it may be to me. I just wanted to give a "non-religious" point of view on this write. I think it's great and you did an amazing job on it.
Keep writing, you're terrific at it. It's a great outlet.

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Wow. Such a pain-filled piece, very honest and raw emotions
But I must say, don't blame Jesus for what your father did. It's clear that your father is a bad man and did some terrible, terrible things to do that are completely uncalled for, especially since he justified them by saying they were "the Lord's will". Bull crap. That reminds me of a quote from Woody Allen, which says "If Jesus came back and saw what was being done in his name, he'd never stop throwing up."
I am sorry this has happened to you. No one should EVER have to endure this crap and I pray that one day your faith is restored and that you realize the blame goes onto your father's shoulders, not Jesus'.

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Wow. This is astonishing. It breaks my heart to hear that you have given up on God, but I can understand why. I'm so sorry you had to go through this, but this is really an amazing write. I commend you for having the strength to write about this and sharing it with us.
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Wow! This is so heart breaking and a terrible reality that so many
children around the world go through everyday. I am very sorry
to read that this was true for you. It's great that you were able
to get all of your thoughts together when writing this. It's a very
painful and sensitive subject that not many people are willing to
talk about everyday.
Thank you very much for sharing your story with all of us and I wish
you all the best in love and life! Take care and good luck to you in
our contest!
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my god.... people are so horrid... i know nothing i will say wil make this any better but i can relate. in a different sense. my step dad says i was naughty that is why he must beat me. that god doesn't hear me. but he truly does... he really does...

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A very heart breaking thing to have to bear.
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This is an amazing piece. The flow is rather rushed with the lack of punctuation though. The emotional aspect of this comes through very well, and I was nearly in tears at the end.


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tear worthy
Reading a story about how a child lost their faith (especially in a way that brutal) is always tough but it's generally unrelatable. You have portrayed it in a way that makes the feelings accessible for those of us who have had "cushy" lives. It's absolutely horrible that you had to experience these things but you have become an amazeing, strong woman because of it. I am glad that you express these things in poetry because then i can get an insight into that incredibly confuseing demon child mind of yours.
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Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit! i dont know what else to say. I am so so sorry, this is such a heartbreaking read. I cant stop the tears from falling. I can relate to this better than you may ever know. I wish i ccould take your pain away. If you ever need to talk please message me, i think we have a lot in common.
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Stunning
Just what I wanted to read after eating. This poem does a wonderful job of experessing your emotions, and the sence of hopelessness and helplessness that people often forget children can feel. Again you have the amazing ability to make me feel things I've never experienced, and never wanted to. Very very vivid imagery. Well done.

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tears of heart just filled me reading your poem,
thankyou for the honor of privilege of reading it in this
contest!
so very brave and fearless is your soul and ink,
and we gloriously honor you for writing this incredible
poem!
touching all our hearts and cores!
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Very well written, such expression you put into this write. The content is so terrible and your feeling of lonliness and thought of being rejected so easily felt. What happened to you was a tragedy of the biggest proportion. Don't blame Jesus, too many people hide behind Jesus and the Bible, they use it to fool people into thinking they are righteous. They do not act like the majority of christians, they are the wolf in sheeps clothing. I will pray for you and hopefully you will see Jesus in His true majesty.


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This is a wonderfully painful read. I understand exactly where you are coming from. The betrayal of a loved one... and using your innonce and your faith against you. This was terrible wrong of your father. In my case it was my grandfather.
And in one of my poems I ended it by saying that "you were the one who was suppose to protect me from evil. Not be one of them."
You wrote this wonderfully. You were so expressive. Got your point across and kept the attention of the reader. Very much so.
And I can understand the title that is how well you wrote the poem. Great job here! Thanks for sharing this with us! Thanks for entering it into this contest.

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I hate it...it was well written enough that i don't want to read it again. Makes me so angry. I really shouldn't read anything about child rape...because then, I tend to have really terrible thoughts about what i would like to do to somebody who takes a child's purity and innocence from them. My story is not exact, but your def not alone. I was sad, hurt, and more terrified all the time at such a young age. (I am still terrified and jumpy till this day) Now that i look back at it, If I ever come across the person who did it to me, I dunno what i would do. Im so sorry to hear it was your dad tho! That tears my heart apart. (My dad still doesn't know anything) and I did the same thing. I prayed and prayed and then stopped. it follows you where ever you go. I really didn't have a normal life for a while, even after my mom left this guy. Worst, I did tell my mom and she didn't believe me, and she would call me names. Well, I hope this write did get it out of you and your soul is more at ease about it.
I give you a 10** - ps. thanks for sharing

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I sorrow over your Hurt
I am sorry that you did not like it. And that it brought painful memories back. I write so that I can release these painful hurting memories from my self and so that the pain does not win. If I just let it silently stew without a voice to grieve over what happen to the girl I was, I find that it becomes intolerable. And that the memories have power over me. Since I will not give that bastard any power over me any longer, that means for me at least the memories can not have the power to hold me silent any longer as well. People often try to offer some one to talk to over this, and I do thank them for their offer of help, but I find that I can not trust as easily or that I could not bare my soul so openly to another, as I would have to. So I write and I let my words speak for me and let them start me on the path of healing the little girl that I was. Any way I did not mean to ramble, i just wanted to say thank you for your words.
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I just reread what i wrote. I should have worded it differently. It was a really well written poem...but i hated reading it...lol. nevermind ....good poem and i am glad you can share it. I understand what you mean about getting that black tar of hurt and betrayal out of your soul. I do it too. just most people don't understand what my poetry means or they take another perspective on it...lol which is cool. now i am rambling...lol. Great poem...it got a lot of strong emotion out of me...i've been thinking about it a lot...Im sad that way tho...lol
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I guess all you need now is a silver. Good luck to you in the contest. I'm sry for what a man called father would do that to his own daugther.

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Jesus rapes in many ways. For my contest it fits. Child molestation and rape aren't easy things to go through and I never wish it on anyone or make light of it. But I like the tone of the eternal question. "If God does exist, why then does he let bad things happen?" You can say what you want about trials and test for mankind. But any "all powerful" deity that is suppose to be loving and caring wouldn't put children through such "Tests"
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That he does, I have found more soft white lies and double standard in the christian faith, than with any other. They say one thing and do another. And being raised Mexican catholic I should know. Why is it all womens fault for one's sin? And how can saying a few spoken prayers in repentance free you of all guilt and clean your soul of all the taint, that you your self put it through? Most disagree and thats fine it is just how I feel. I do not ask any one else to validate my feeling or beliefs. I feel and think as I do because of what life has taught me. If any one has issue with that, try living with it and the memories that never leave. Sorry I did not mean to go off the rails or any thing just how I feel and all. thanks for your words.
Darkest Thoughts Always
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This is beautifully written, it's very intense and absolutely heartbreaking.
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very sad and touching...
I do not understand this kind of sickness nor do have the proper words to express what I feel upon reading this. You are right that God didnt hear his prayers. I hope time will heal your hurts. I do know he loves you and he had nothing to do with the evil done to you though an evil man did he best to blame God. I wish you well and hope you find peace and happiness from this. Mark

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This was so heartbreaking to read.. I cannot say that I have been in your exact shoes, but in a way I have walked the same path..You are not alone there.. This was so full of your hurt emotion it brought tears to my eyes.. You created an image that would make grown men cry... Very well done in expressing yourself though I am so very sorry that you had to live a life like that..
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well, shit......
call me hopefully, naive about our justice system but i've always prefered those that have been abused to speak out. it's something that happens all too frequently, but society STILL views the subject as taboo. yet it's perfectly acceptable (and expected) for young girls to wear pracitcally nothing and shake their ass in front of the cameras on mtv, and for guys to grind against them. the double standard creates too much confusion of what's right and what's wrong or whether or not someone was a victim by "force or choice."
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Yes it was prompt #1 and thank you for your view on this piece. Like I said in my notes I wrote this to help with the memories. And to try and make some sense of the childhood memories that haunt my soul. If I do not try to get past it in this way I fear I would go crazy. Some people do drugs, others go to counseling. I write what is in my soul so that the scars on my soul have a voice. We all do what we must to make some sense out of the tormented memories that haunt us. I can only hope that my words can convey the depths of my hearts pain and in the writing of the words let go some of the anguish that strives to kill me. Anyway I ramble on when all I wanted to say was thank you for your words of encouragement. Till our words meet again.
Darkest Thoughts Always
D.C.
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I must say I am stunned with this piece...My heart goes out to you and my prayers for healing...I must also say that even though your dad used God and his word on you during this act of abomination...This was not the doing of the Lord...All must remember that the Devil is very gifted in the word of God and knows what God says better than any human...The line that your dad used on you was not meant for the purpose of what he used it for...In this world we have to discern what is of God and what is not...Any act against a child that is on this road of destruction is definitely not of God...And my advice to any child is to tell someone that can help...Never hold back and continue to suffer this horrid abuse...
It is better to tell it than to hide it...To hide it is just what the Devil wanted...A prison he kept you in.I always tell my children that if something of this nature happens...Tell someone no matter what the person tells them as they will threaten to hurt any one close to them because what they have done was wrong and they knew it...That is why they threaten to hurt them or someone else they love...It won't happen...My heart is saddened that you went through such horror...
Blessings
~CherylAnn~

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this is so powerful. i dont know what else to say its amazing.


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Congrats on the gold, the bronze, and the honorable mention. This was EXTREMELY powerful. It kinda hits you in the face with a sludge hammer. I found it t be a little over the top what with the whole "Jesus raped me" If that's not blasphemy I don't know what is.
Don't get me wrong I'm not bible thumper but I do think there is a line to be drawn and the line is a dot to you with this one!
It wasn't bad though... I liked the passion in this... well done.
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I feel this should be left-aligned, it would help out in the reading of the poem for some people.
You have pauses in most of your lines, but, you do not have punctuation (such as commas etc.,) to have the reader pause correctly, it's a straight-read, and you haven't written the lines to be that way. I feel you should read through the poem, and see what I'm speaking about. You do it in some lines but others where it's obvious punctuation would go, there is none. I would individually point them out but I feel that'd take me a long time, and be a bulk of my comment, in the end. So, I'm not going to do that. But, what I will do is give an example:
"We listen to what the father says telling us of your goodness and of your kindness to every one even sinners."
This seems to be one single sentence. You have one use of punctuation, and that's the period at the end. Perhaps something like:
"We listen to what father says, telling us of your
goodness, and of your kindness to everyone; even sinners."
Read your line, then read mine. Which one reads the best?
This piece can be taken in many different ways, and I think that's a good thing, it gets peoples minds thinking on certain things however it does have its bad points, too. What I mention above is one, but, also that it seems to generalize, and I do not feel one should evoke such hostility towards one sect, when, it's really just certain sects within the one sect that is subjugated.

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A beautiful piece because it shows the distructive nature of an abusive ass hole. Twisting scripture because he likes little kids. Well I'm sure the Ironic Punishment Division of Hell will have fun with him.

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Oh damn. How can I leave a smart @$$ comment on something like this? That's just sick what he did. I'm glad you at least have something to help keep memories like that from completely bringing you down. Thank you for entering, good luck and I'm sorry
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wow, gold honourable mention and bronze. well deserved.
lexy xxx

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The title really caught my attention...
This is a sad piece, indeed.
Nice job all the same....

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This is terribly sad! I commend you for your strength. This is a truth that many fall victim to, and sadly we turn our heads and pretend we dont notice!! I'm not saying everyone but just society in general. Keep hope alive! You'll make it!! The Title for this really caught my attention! Nice write!! Congrats on the trophies -
Very powerful piece that really stirs the anger in the blood, at least for me, for more than one reason. It is good that you can get this out through writing and use that as a way of helping yourself, though none of the fault for any circumstances were yours, but wholly your abusers. As for the religious aspect in what you are saying, I shall for now keep my thoughts to myself, for if I start I shall no doubt end up engaging in a long, long rant that will most likely accomplish nothing other than upsetting a lot of people for my views on religion, and this religion in particular and how it molds and treats people, there thoughts, their views, their actions. I shall leave it at that. (though I must qualify that and not generalise, not everyone who is religious or has faith is this way inclined and actually do see and honour the true message).
However, I digress. Good write and congrats on bronze.
(Sorry for the long comment)>

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I thank you for your comment and i do not think it was rambling or that it was to long. And as for my view of religion, well lets just say it is not pretty. I am not saying believing in the Christian god is bad or good, just that it is no longer for me. I have out grown the belief the Christian god is kind and good. But I do not force my views on any one all I care about is that people believe in some thing. Maybe we could message each other and see what we can come up with. Again my thanks on your words and comment it does mean much to me.
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Thank you. I know what you mean about that. There are good aspects of Christianity, just like there is with any other religion, but it's moreso the way the followers of religions behave and react that put me off, not to mention the glaring inconsistencies and hypocrisy that are completely ignored. If there is a God, I don't know what the hell it/they (as more than one is more likely) and the books that we as humans write and ideals that we aspire to are our attempts to understand that which we do not. It's a case of humanizing the inhuman, and that's where the problems begin.
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People like this piss me off beyond all belief...thinking they can abuse and have their way with children. I honestly believe they reserve a special place in Hell for these people. They have to. I cannot believe this. I am so sorry that this happened, and I know that no words I say can ever ease or take the pain away. Nobody's words can. The emotion in this is so raw, I had to stop reading it for a second. This is an awful thing that happened to you, and I just...I wish there was something I could do. But I enjoyed this poem. I find that poetry is my release from things too, though I must say I have never experienced anything quite like this. Thank you for entering and sharing.


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My thanks
Thank you for your kind words, yes they can never take away what was. but your words sooth the soul that is here now in the present. To know that my words have reached some one and they care enough to try to make it better means more than I can say. So again my sincere thanks.
Darkest Thoughts Always
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What a profound piece of imagery, of such a horrible crime...I, too have memories of a father who is a minister, who beat my mom, called her names, and we had to play church on sunday, pretending it didn't happen, we were happy, until we got back behind closed doors....I feel your pain, in some sense, sorry this happened to you...I feel Jesus abused my mom, because he didn't answer my prayers, my dad still is alive...

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i am so taken by this work, it simply cannot be unoticed by the soul, it upsets me, knowing the very stem this comes from, and unsettles me, that you attack it so blatently... i wish that i had some words of wisdom, but in matters like this, wisdom dose little or nothing at all, i only wish, that i could take some of the burdon from you.. you have my deepesed, and most sinsere applaud for your strenth, and a friend to listen if ever you need to vent in a inpersonal way! i have lived thru a very similure situation for most of my childhood, and teenage life, and for whatever its worth, i am truly sorry i cannot help.. nobody should have to feel this.

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Whoa...This is so FANTASTIC Definitely gold-worthy. I am at a total loss for words...I hope my applauses says everything
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Oh No Dear..............................
Jesus was there all the way through!!! I used to cry out him too when I would go to bed beaten and battered by my mom's boyfriend. But the abusers will be punished by God as there is nothing more precious in his sight. He will turn around what the devul means for evil into good. Just ask him ..and as sad as it sounds he brought you through this for a reason, and I have to believe that about my situation as wellbut blame no one but the abuser and Satan who deceives all who will listen. My heart just aches for you and I pray healing comes to your heart soon an you can move on from this jorrendous childhood. I wrote a poem called "Innocence Lost" if you care to take a read...God Bless You for the rest of your days!!!~~Toni~~
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This is a brilliant way of letting things out.
My father tried to strangle my mother to death when I was 2 and then he tried to run my brother over with his car when my brother was 17, luckily for me my mam kicked him out and I never got "in his way".
Writing really does help to let things out. And you have so much courage to post it up here for the world to see.

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Oh my gosh!!!!!!! Ohh Sweety. This is soo terrible. Your daddy is a terrible man and you didn't deserve any of the pain that has been forced upon you. He will get what is coming to him. You did a great job expressing your feelings and emotions and you will be helping others by putting it out there.If you ever need to talk I am here for you. This was NOT YOUR FAULT!!! Jesus didn't rape you baby. Your discusting father did. Write me sometime.
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What happened when you was a child was tragic and for that I am so sorry, no man has a right to do that to anyone- let alone his child. I will tell you right now, that he will get his. Karma is funny like that. It wasn't God or Jesus's fault- it was his. some men really suck ass.
As for the write I would suggest you put it under religion as well, because that is a good sector of it. The write was moving and touching, mostly cuz of the imagry it causes.
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I felt the tears welling up in my eyes as I read this. I wanted to knock the b@@@@@d out. You held me thoughout the entire poem. I do hope life is treating you better now. I know I sound like an idiot but I find my self speechless because of the power this poem has. -
thats just it-jesus didnt rape you-your father did, your sick twisted father did
im not really big on faith but its not jesus to blame, its him
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This is tragic and depressing. The one we are supposed to have faith in, and you have felt let down by Him. I am sorry for your painful memories.

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I found this to be a very sad and tragic write, but I commend your bravery in your expression, and this reminds me how we all need true healing, with love and patience.
One Love
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You had some good spots in here, but the line breaking was ineffective, this was somewhat cliche, and the title.. the title just didn't work for me. Not that I am a 'super christain yay me i'm holy' kind of guy, but it's just... I don't like it.
Besides that, good job.
However.. I don't think this will win, so I'm going to remove this from the contest. [I have 100 entries.. it's easier to stay organized by doing this] Thanks for entering though.
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this is really really heart breaking and I'm so sorry for you. But I assure you that Jesus never wanted this for you, I wish I could explain to you just how much emotion this poem brings to Him.
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This is the Demon child I know! This is heart wrenching. I have always believed you are an awesome writer. You know my beliefs on the title & the metaphor of Christ raping you. You know that a misinterpretation of what was said by one can be one of the worst things out there. I know how much this affected you. This was excellent. I also think it's an interesting contradiction of using something as cute as a teddy bear on something so ugly as rape. Keep up the excellent work!


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This has got to be the most deepest poem I have ever read.
For everybody who comments saying that you hope she realizes it was not Jesus who raped her, maybe you should keep those comments to yourself and understand that everybody has different ways of seeing things.
I totally understand how and why you would feel this way, I have been questioning my faith here lately and can not see why he would let these things happen to innocent children and people in general.
If you want to ever talk just message me, or e-mail me
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i just want to say, i hope by now you know that jesus isnt the one who raped you but your father did, unless you metaphorically were suggesting that since your father is religious, adn that god didnt help you, that jesus raped you. nyway it was a good write, and its hard to go down this road, unfourtunatly a lot of ppl do have abuse occur at least once in their lives
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This was a good poem. Thank you for entering and good luck in the contest.
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First of all, this is heart-wrenching, and all too common; I should know.
Structure-wise, this is not really a poem; it is prose. That does not lessen the impact.
Grammatically, you have some punctuation errors that would greatly enhance the reading if corrected. Still, not as distracting as it could be.
Content-wise, I would hope you have grown enough to realize that Jesus did not really rape you. Your "father" saying that this is his right to punish you in this way was simply him justifying his own sin. Bad things happen to children, it is a fact of life. And, he will pay for his sin, as children are special and should not be harmed.
If this story is true, one thing that will help you is to forgive. That does not mean forgetting, but forgiving and putting it behind you. Not easy, and I am not being flip. It was the only way I could live.
If it helps, you can read this:
http://allpoetry.com/poem/2747522.
I wish you well.
Thank you for sharing.
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a very powerful, heart-wrenching piece... it is a very emotional and intense piece, very raw, very real and sadly, I am sure a piece that many can relate to... it makes it even more sad that it is based at all in reality... this piece says a lot very simply and very directly...
you've done a good job with what must have been a very emotional write, for you...

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i can relate to this very well, except the fact that it was not my father.. i understand, and so far your poem has touched me the most.. it took my breath away and i absolutley loved it.. and plus it had everything the poem needed, a little bit of rhyme here and there, how, who, why, when and what happened was in there.. a perfect poem for this title.. i couldn't see how it could be any better -
This poem is simply beautiful in the way it's written. But, on the contrary, it's utterly devastating that someone would do that to a child in the first place. We all have demons from our pasts, whether we put them there or, in this poems case, was put there for us. I have my own demons that I hope never to reface. You didn't deserve any of this.
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I'M SOOOO SOO SO SORRY. SHIT, I DON'T KNOW YOU BUT I REALLY WISH YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO GO THROUGH ANY OF THIS. It's very traumatizing and hard to bare, as is the memories. Writing down emotions is one fo the best ways to get outhow you feel inside. Once again, i'm sorry and i really hope you're doing okay......this is a heart wrenching piece, veyr nicely written.

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My Thanks
Thank you for sharing my sorrow even though you do not know me. Your kind words help whether you know it or not. Yes it is very hard to carry these memories, that is why I write. If you read more of my other poems you will find that I do this allot I exorcise the inner demons with the words I write. I some times sorrow over the thought that others may feel bad about what I write yet I need this way of letting out the pain. It is either this or go mad. Again my thanks for your words.
Darkest Thoughts
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Hey
you're very welcome and if you ever need to talk, please feel free to send me an email on here. I know it must really hurt to live with the memories and I'M VERY VERY PROUD OF YOU FOR USING THIS AS A COPING MECHANISM! Yes, we may feel bad but we worry as well. At least i worry, i hate others suffering. once again, your very welcoem
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Ah, the past haunts again
Like you, I understand the demons that haunt the soul. I have my own, not as traumatic as yours, by my own demons all the same... release is good, I applaud you for doing that at least, you've grown as well... I hope that the purging of your demons helped, I just would like to see them vanquished permanently, but then again, our demons help us balance, much to our chagrin somedays... I wish you the best in life, sweetie, and I hope that the demons don't plague you so much that you don't enjoy the sweeter things in life. XOXO
Peace...
DarkOne
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This poem reminds me of what my stepfather did to me.




















































