Fade away

Moments that quickly fade,
Drifting to only be another memmory,
It's in my heart that has laid,
A deep depression inside of me.
I can't stand this feeling,
For whatever is going on inside,
Life no longer is so appealing,
There's too much hurt of which I hide.
Constantly fluttering, Like a butterfly,
Knawing at my very flesh,
Is the want to just die,
Since I no longer have any strength left.
Happiness, I'm unsure of anymore,
Peace, I never once have found,
Eachday I awake, is like a chore,
I'll never find common ground.
Is this called hopelessness?
Or is it just real?
I've tried so hard to do my best,
Yet pain is all I feel.
Standing over top of me,
Is this angry burden that won't let go,
Will it ever set me free?
Or will it take total control.
I once cared about everything,
I strived so very hard, everyday,
Now the will isn't in me,
I just wish, like memmories, I could fade away.