As I walk through the halls I face the difficult task,
Of knowing that when school starts this pain will forever last,
I look at these halls that I will again have to walk,
I remember the times when in the halls we would talk,
And I can feel your presence as I walk down these halls,
Feeling this emptiness & leaning againist these walls,
Nothing is worse than knowing that I must walk again...
Through these hallways where you had once been,
I don't want to do this how can I walk these halls without you,
I don't want to feel this pain anymore & I don't want to be blue,
But You aren't going to be in those hallways & I know you won't be,
These hallways are so painful to walk on, Please Vicki help me,
How can I go on without you these hallways are so vain,
The feeling I get from walking these halls is nothing now but pain,
I will never again be the same without you & I need to know,
How am I going to walk these hallways when the pain countinuely grows.
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Realizing that once I go to School...Vicki won't be in those hallways like she used to.
Victoria (Vicki) Rena Anderson
(My Sister, My Comforter, My Bestest Friend)
March 9 1986
June 3 2003
Died after sustaining critical injuries in a car accident that occurred on May 21st 2003.
Written August 4th, 2003
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I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. I hope the words you put
on paper and the support you recieve from your fellow writers is
some support.
I wish you loving memories.
John -
You will be ok, Vicki will be with you
Just as yesyoucan said, Vicki will be there with you in spirit. She will forever be in your heart, and in spirit, by your side. Best of luck when you go back to school. It will be difficult, but you WILL make it. That is what Vicki would want for you. Mary Anne
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Yes, Sara Dawn, Vicki will be with you every day in spirit. Some days you will feel it more than others and you may not feel it yet but she is there in your heart. I was concerned going back to school would be really hard. One foot in front of the other for Vicki, Megan and your dad. Wear light colored sunglasses if you are worried you will cry (I have) and accept the hugs that come if you do. I broke down in tears in the grocery store and the cashier quit checking and ran over and gave me a hug. I'd bought about 30 (99 cent Hallmark cards) to send mother a card each week and returned because (for her). She never got to read one. Went into ICU the first week I sent one and never saw.
I forgot to check author box on my other post to you so in case you didn't see. Let me know if you get this, please and BLESSED BE
TS2CUTE is really down and posted a poem about suicide about four hours ago. Maybe just a poem but... You can only post once so do you mind visiting her and giving her a Dp cyber hug please. I forgot to check box (next to author) for a pop up when she logs on so I don't know if she'll see my message. You know how those pop ups get your attention. Sometimes when I give others cyber hugs I feel better too. hourofpower.org has online counselling... Blessed Be. Don't give up. "SELF MATTERS" (((HUGS))) from the friendly cyber drama queen -
You have many very nice comments here, not much to add, but simply go ahead and grieve at your own pace. There will be things that will trigger memories, and you will find yourself crying in the middle of the mall, or some other place that others won't understand, but that doesn't matter. What matters is that you process it at your own speed, you deal with it as best you can, you get help when you can't stand it anymore, and you begin to heal. The pain is scorching, those of us left behind are so lost when someone we love so much is taken away. If you have a strong faith, this will help sustain you, for His promise is wonderful and his grace is divine. I hope you find some peace and are able to get through your grieving, I know its tough. Beautiful poem that you have written, straight from the heart. God bless you.
~ becky -
my condolences to u... its a touching poem, friends we have lost. my prayers r with u. i hope our spirits grow stronger.
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Losing someone you love and they are your soulmate is a tragic event in your life, and yes it is going to be hard and painful, and it will take time to heal and be strong again, I am sure victoria knows that you miss her and love her, and I bet she is so proud of you for doing this for her. The one thing never to forget is all the time you had together and that will stay with you forever in your heart. This is a wonderfully sad write on the emptiness you are going through right now. I hope time heals for you and you continue to write about things in your life.
All the best
Lakota xx -
Terrific
You got lots of talent. -nods- I really like your poem. I can really relate to it. I'm really sorry about all that has happened for you and I hope that everything works out for the "best".
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wow im so sorry about all ofyour losses. this is so much more pain than i have ever experienced in my whole life. anyway well i know what you mean. although none of my friends have died, some of them have moved away and stuff, its still grieving, but im sure yours is at a whole higher level or loss. im so sorry, and im sure this dosent help, but just know that there will be others out there, that feel the same you do. you should consider talking to these people and forming like a big "cult" ( if you will ) of friends, you'll all have suffered the same loss, and can relate to one anothers feelings. perhaps you should hold a memorial service at school where everyone can grieve, together, cry on each others shoulders, and wipe each others tears. anyway well im sure you;re tired of my little pep talk by now, but i really do care, and am deeply saddened by your loss.
if you need to im me
SuZY
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This is sad..but I'm not sure why she's gone...I'm puzzled...I read your front comment page and I'm guessing she's not going out with your brother anymore.. Am I right? And you're going to miss her because you got to be such good friends with her and you wont see her that much anymore...I dont know if i'm right or not..but its a poke in the dark..I'm sorry about this, but if is the reason she's going to be gone, then you STILL can see her and be with her even though your bro and her have broken up...Anywho..back to the poetry....It was really well written..it had me glued to the computer screen! Keep up with this kick ass poetry!
And thank you so much for commenting on my poem..it meant A LOT to me, So thank you very very much! And I'm also very sorry to hear that your father died...I cant even say how sorry...And what really pisses me off is that they didn't even tell you the WHOLE story, thats just wrong, I mean HE'S YOUR DAD! Didn't they think you HAD THE RIGHT to KNOW?! People these days!! >_< Well, enough of my rambling..Awesome poem! keep it up!
Take care,
!Rachel! -
so much loss
makes me dig toes deep
try to hold on
to sands that shift
while tears wash
over love
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I've moved around a lot in my life.
It is certainly sad when friends leave ..
a certain emptiness in the lack of conversations.
Lonliness is a hard rock to turn over, I know.
You do meet new people eventually, though, if you let yourself be open to it. -
ahhhhhhh sigh
I know whatcha mean and Im sorry to see youve lost so many people dear to you. I lost my mom to cancer a year ago, and as much as i would like to tell you that it gets better, it will only get harder for a while.
Dont let people tell you to "move on and get over it" they do that to me all the time. each person grieves in their own timing, and as much as the loss hurt the day they left us, its the little things that keep reminding us they arent here and will not be here again.....that seem to hurt the worst.
I remember the day my mother died, I was there, but I find myself crying when I pass the little teacup set she gave me when I was 3 that I still have a few cups for, I cry when I hold the bunny she held when she died, I cry when my children play with a toy she gave them and remember her. Walking through the same places she walked, is hard
but please.....cry and let it move through you....and please
in your grief, remember the good things, so that when you do remember her, you smile, more than cry
thats all I can offer.
if you need to talk to someone who knows how you feel (in my own way) and dont want to talk to those who will tell you HOW to feel, who havent ever faced what we have, please email me.
there is a link on my author page
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Hmm I not sure exactly why she won't be there...but I'm sure you'll make it through. This was a good poem. Simply written but still with very honest amd true feelings. Nice work here..
~*Shanna*~
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