Food is my [[drug]]
Fucking with my appearence
But now I must quit
Fix the ;mess; its made
I mustn't eat
Nothing can go past
These lips
Only water and diet pills
The habit of eating HAS to be .b.r.o.k.e.n.
I'll do what I have to
So as to finally look the way I want
The way everyone thinks I must look
I will be BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!
... Give It Time ...
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don't tell me i shouldnt think this way. i no i shouldnt, but the reality is i do.
im not anorexic or bulemic or anything. so dont worry about me.
these are thoughts, dont bother critizising them....
Please tell me what you think
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Yep ... that's me all the way ... I feel the same ... I remember at one time of point ... I used to be thin and somewhat pretty anyhow ... but then ... BAM ... one day ... I bloaded out like a hippo ... and I too feel the way you are expressing yourself now ... and I have done it many a times ... doing it now as a matter of fact ... I have to fit into my dress for my mothers wedding ... and I have been drinking water like it's going out of style ... I understand where you are coming from a LOT ... you have no idea ... as I read through your poems ... I see me ... a little more in each and every one of them ... and it's almost scary ... to think that my IDENTICLE twin is out there ... you ... doing everything, feeling everything, seeing everything as me ... My love is with you and so are my thoughts ... you always have a friend in me ... turn to me when you feel you need to talk ... and I will try to walk beside you ... and love you as my equal ... Much Love ... Sparkeh
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i really like this, sounds like me except i do have an ed. im glad ur ok, and i understand not being able to controll the thoughts.
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0oh, i am sorry u have an ED. it seems bad for me ot be writting thing slike thet when i dont have one. sorry you had to read it. but its just how i feel, and thats what i right about...
if you ever need to talk let me no im here.
take care, love HB
xoxoxoxox
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Just read your profile, then this piece. No matter what the drug, if it helps you write; do the drug and write. It's the writing that get's you to the next moment and that's all life is. Feel the way you feel; embrace it! Who ever heard of a happy poet? You are a poet, right? Then write and screw what poeple say! You know the secret answer is...42...
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whats does 42 mean??
well i knwo i dont write about happy topics. i cant iv tried and they sound horrible. so i stick tosader stuff... its more me, and comes more natural to me.
thanks for the comment..
take care of urself
xoxoxoxox
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this poem may be short but is trule dark beauty is one that all lust for and ask of but i would watch myself and my habbits of new and old watch yourself oh and your poem is sweet as ale
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thank you, i am glad you liked the poem.
and thanks alot for your comment. your right we all have to watch our habits, and the habits we may grow to have to..
take care of yourself
xoxoxox
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thats like exactly what i think
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*hugs* That's all I can offer on this one sweetie. I love you, and you're already beautiful. Remember that. And be careful chickie!!
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thanks for your comment sweetie
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You are already beautiful !
It is so sad that we feel we have to impress others. Fuck them, I reckon
Will they come to your funeral, when you die from anorexia? Sorry...It makes me sad to think that you feel like you must starve yourself as well as deal with your other demons. I love you lots...and as I said, YOU ARE ALREADY BEAUTIFUL !
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thanks for the comment AP mum...
its tru i no they wouldnt come to my funeral at all but i still cant help thinking about it. nobody has to say anything, the way i think people look at me says enough. hmm oh well
love you
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You are beautiful. And we all know it. Your words are beautiful and they come from a beautiful heart. Here are some loving for you. (Please note, I did not tell you not to think this way!!!)
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thanks for that...
thanks for the comment and applause too, take care
xox xox xox
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There are so many people who can relate to this. Society certainly sends this perception of what beauty is, so that so many of us think exactly the same. I do hope you find the beauty you seek without drastic measures.
Gaylene
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thanks for the comment, and the care. so many do feel like this, its sad but its a part of life.
take care, we'll talk soon
xox xox xox
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