A Parent's Jealous Love

Mommy and Daddy wished to express their love
Mommy helped Daddy lock me in a room
dank and filled with an unknown smell
Left on my own for several weeks
darkness subsided to my Father’s shadow
Daddy began laughing and dancing
blaring music acousted my ears, deafening everything
The song was happy, familiar,
Surface, Shower Me With your Love
They broke up after my birth, together at three
Their wedding song, I was five
Daddy held me against a wall,
Mommy hung me by my blood drenched hair
wrists were nailed to the wall, ankles crossed and nailed
their sacrifice internal, now loud and burning
my anorexic body scalping me,
tearing sounds chilling me to my exposed bone
“Her hair was always better than mine”
spit mixed with my tears, gathered at my jaw
pliers tugged at my nails, tearing
“All that money on manicures, prissy whore”
“Braces for her teeth, couldn’t go to Florida”
Another set of pliers grabbed my teeth, crushing them
“Too perfect for the likes of you”
my screams were hoarse from lack of water
crushed teeth ripping as I pleaded, gums bleed my thirst away
my throat jerked aside, tounsils waved before my eyes
screams that rang in my head, not from the walls
Mommy walked around with bloody breasts, mine
Skin shaved off my arms and legs
Stake moved to forearm, wrist sawed off
Foot pulled through stake, ripped from me by a chain
Ears removed in small chunks, face skinned but muscles worked
Ammonia searing them like fire, sizzling, burning, throbbing
Screams in the silence of  laughter
Sludge hammer to dainty shins, knees, loud cracks
Calf hollowed out, forearm follows, bicept last
“Pretty eyes, I want them”
fingers reach past eye lids too tug the eyes away
hooks pushed through bare muscle, holding it apart
knife between them, pulled aside
chocking on blood, gurgling help
intestines danced away from me in slimmy hands
round the room, dressing the walls, hanging limp
beating slightly, chin resting on thumping heart
beats slow and stop, blood dries to dry muscle
Mommy’s smile looms in the fading darkness of laugther
"We're free! Let's go to Florida"

I love you, Mommy. I love you Daddy.
I’ll love you no matter what you do
Even if the love you show me’s untrue