sweet meaning for short

what would one do to keep those deep days
                                  steep days
the times before lost loves and dark drugs
before you went there
        and he blanked old stares
when my feet would hold dirt
                      sweet meaning for short
lazy summers of sunshine
        wars between girls and boys
              between your side and mine
               
water balloon bombs
                  sitting on ice
  while thin seethrough choke ropes guarded the streets

mosquitos feasting on young hostages
              tree swings and
                  scraped knees
                      rotted wooden first forts

the beginning of something
                  falling on end
a wish to repeat
        never succeed
          so one lives living with no needs
          so one lives living as he shall please