Yes its me again.

Not a day goes by where I dont think about you.
I know you probably think I am crazy, yes I think I am.
I am crazy about you and the wrong that was done.
I do understand your side, but do you look at mine?
Do you understand they took you from me?
Imagine a mothers love so deep, and trying to get it right.
I wanted you to have a life better than mine.
I only asked for help because getting it right mattered!
I thought I was doing what was best and I paid the ultimate price!
I am sorry, more sorry than you could ever know.
I am sorry I failed you, sorry I found you too,
cause finding you caused more pain and I never wanted that.
I hope one day that it's you who decides to find me or stumble upon me
and you make the very brave move of saying hello.
I know you won't believe me, you have been influenced all your life,
but I am a wonderful person, who is helpful, spiritual and kind.
I want to be in your life because I believe I can help you.
I have come a long way from the girl who hated herself,
cut herself, abused herself and others.
I am older now and wiser, with three wonderful kids.
I would like to make that four, but I know you won't come.
All I have ever asked for is for a chance for you to know US and for US to know you to.
I know that within five minuets of being in the door you would love us forever.
I have missed you everyday and it hurts so bad.
I get so angry about the lies and the way it was done.
Five minuets is all I ask, but I know I will be waiting a long time.
You are worth the wait.
I have no idea what you look like or how beautiful you are.
I hope your told everyday that your wonderful and smart.
I hope no-one has ever hurt you or refused to take your side.
I hope no-one has ever made you hate who you are or made you scared of me.
I would never want to take the place of your mum, cause thats the thing, I respect that to you 'she' is your 'mum', you love her and need her, but can't I be a friend?
I would never push you or hurt you, I promise.....
Remember though, that the only things in life you ever regret are the chances you never take!!

I Love You Baby Girl ~x~