Loving you is like having cancer-
The harder I fight, the more you destroy,
The harder I try, the more my pain multiplies,
The harder I cry, the weaker I become,
The more I pray for this to end, the closer to death I come.
How long would it take for the Earth to shatter into millions of pieces and be catapolted into space if we drilled out the core???
How long would it take for a house to fall apart around you if you had termites eating away at your foundation???
How long does it take to die when leeches are sucking the blood out of your body???
Because that's what I'm waiting for.
You've killed our core,
You've walked all over my love,
And you have sucked the life out of me.
You've broken me and I've forgiven you.
You've lied to me, and I've forgiven you.
You've decieved me, and I've forgiven you.
And now that you've killed me, you still expect me to forgive.
But can't you see that I have nothing left??
I thought I had a big heart, I thought I was strong, and I thought I could accept anything you threw at me.
But just like cancer you've shown me it doesn't matter.
It doesn't matter how strong I am, or how accepting I am.
It doesn't matter how good of a person I am, because cancer has no conscience.
It finds you and your weak spots,
It eats away at your soul, and it spreads through your body,
Until you are nothing. NOTHING!!
A shell with no meaning, a life with no purpose, and a heart with no reason left to love anyone or anything.
Cancer. That's exactly what you are.
And the longer you stay, and keeping telling me things will be different,
The more you're just prolonging my pain, and the inevitable.
For someone who claims to love me like no other man ever could,
For someone who claims to be changing so much,
And for someone who claims to know me as well as you do,
You sure seem to enjoy watching me die.
Author notes
fuck men. yet again.
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Always a treat
Yet another masterful work from you. You never cease to amaze when it comes to pouring yourself out with dark depressive poetry. You have the absolute worst luck when it comes to men. Good to know that things aren't too different with you...lol. -
Well done
The anger and hopelessness you express in this poem seems so raw and tender, like an open wound. You express perfectly the brutality of intimacy betrayed and the sharp blade of love used as a weapon.
At first, I thought maybe you should shorten it, but as I read it over, the length gives it the lingering quality of slow death -- your words like the cancer eating away at love.
Good job.
CaliOkie
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You Are GOD!!!
I am absolutely in love with this poem!! The anger, the pain, the frustration. So much of all of these it almost isn't possible. There is something truly grand about this work of art. I can't even begin to tell you everything I love about this poems. Full Props.
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Genocideangel
Goddess dear sir...
Jeez...I'm blushing, and deeply humbled. You have a good way of giving a girl an ego boost...
Wrote this about my husband....seems our whole relationship has been based on lies and deceit. Now I'm just picking up the pieces of my heart...
Are you on myspace??
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Nothing Raggedy here
I assure you that your poetry is top grade without fail. I have yet to read something that I have not enjoyed reading. At this rate I find it seemingly impossible, everything is placed so delicately as to compliment the next line.
Your husband had to be a fool to not have seen the talent you possessed and supported it. But then again he seems to have given enough inspiration to make up for his actions. I have to say that no relationship worth while is built off of lies and deceit. It always leads to the same outcome, bitter pain and loneliness. There are only a few of us who truly know how things are meant to be. Unfortunately, we don't always see the results in time. I hope you got out from that mess, and if not I hope you do. I pray that you find someone worth your while.
Here enjoy!
www.myspace.com/wigglesxd
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Do you mean the closer to death I come.
*Bunny* me, Oh darling, such mouth and such tone. Forgiveness is the key of life. You must understand, through tragedy we stand tall. I know, you have all the rights to hate my gutts, but dear, understand since then, my heart has been pleading endlessly for your forgiveness. I know that I was an a*s Hole, I know that, I have done you wrong, I know that too, but right at this very moment, nothing is more true than heartly confession. I am sorry... I am not enjoying the fact you are feeling so disturbed. I don't know, I have to find a way to mend your gentle heart. Stay beautiful because I know that you are...
This is a very sad piece. I am sorry for everything you are going through. This is when life is at its best, the moment we feel that we cannot take it anymore, that's when our angels come down and walk the miles ahead. So don't feel bad, sometimes, the best thing that happens to us are the things that we thought were important and we're about to lose. Keep your chin up. Reality bites. Without a loss, there is no gain. You lose someone to gain yourself. Great write and splendid job... Take care and blesses...
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Thank you so much for your comment, and confession. Too bad such a beautiful confession couldn't have come from my husband when I needed it so badly. But you have lifted my spirts, which is exactly what I need right now.
Reality does bite. But as you said, without loss there is no gain. To lose him, I gain myself back. It will take awhile, but I'll bounce back.
I changed become to come. Thanks. I'm curious to know your sign. When is your birthday?
~dena
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