Some Day

some days
this is why
i have to go
because these things
are in my head
and i have to
get them out
before i can
go to bed
you dont know
how complicated
this puzzle
really is
to unlock the
doors
beyond the walls
or tumble the
rock
from 40' tall
it seems an
almost inhuman
feat
one only a few
have had
the patience
to achieve
it's a challenge
so few are
willing to accept
to dive in
to my greatest
depth
i dont know
what to do
i've made a
clear decision to
work on me
myself, and i
ive made that
silent vow
that is lip to lip
and not eye to eye
and that vow
was not for
someone else
that vow was
just for me
i swore on that
day
as i drove
away
i was going
to be the best me
that i could be
and it wasn't
from anger
or spite
it was simply
because
i knew it was
right
and i had to
take care of
myself
before
i could be
with anyone else
and i want
to do this right
i don't want
there to ever
be spite
between me
and anyone i
meet
i wont let
anyone else
down
because
i didnt take
the time
to bring
myself down
to a place
where i can
walk
along my
stream
bare feet
on the flat
smooth
rock
and life
is but a
dream
and all this
comes out
of me
before i
can ever
go to sleep
does it make
sense
in any sense
of the word
because it's
obscene
all the things
that i've heard
in my life
im not innocent
im the
prodigal son
sometimes
im the
antagonist
who has me
undone
and this is
all that goes
through my
head
each night
before i
go to bed
and a million
other
thoughts and
feelings
are tossing
and turning
and every time
i stop my
reeling
i think i
feel my feet
start burning
as i dance
across the
white hot coals
that stand
between
me and
my goals
ill just keep
on spinnin'
round
until my
life just sets
me down
and lets me
take it
by the horns
and make
a place
into a home
and maybe
i could stop
my roamin'
someday