My own redemption song

Been down a harrowing road
this year
between stress with classes
and  most of all boy troubles
so many of them
so much confusion
because this  was the first time
relationships happened for me


Though  they may not have
lasted long
I had trouble  moving on
on especially from  my first break up
that took awhile because my heart
was heavy with sadness and confusion
and  I thought that  I did something wrong
well at least at first

Shallow pools of confidence
due to  relationships that were
just based on sex and wanting to move
things quicker than I was ready
they were trying to build  me up
but in essece their lies brought me down
and made me more self conscious

So  now  I seeek my own redemption
from  the twisted tales of failed relationships
and false love
looking into empty eyes
of  guys who said they loved me
but didn't really mean it
one crush where I thought
the spark was there
but he spun me around
kissed me twice and told me  I was beautiful

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
this phrase is so true
so I'm  so over it
all the falseness and lies
and insceurity
this is my redemption song